bryan bloggie

2007-01-18T22:02:00.000+08:00

hmm.. so happy.. finally got a job le.. well.., they called mi last tuesday.. yesterday and today went for their orientation program located at spore warehouse at paya leba.. so ta ma de far lo.. haa.. every morning wake up at 7.15 to prepare.. by 8 mus take the train liao sia.. lol.. giordano got alot of things to rmb sia, i think my head going to burst le ba.. they hab a stock keeping unit and u hab to rmb all their codes.. and hello, tats alot of numbers.. haha.. think going to get bombard by their numbers.. k la.. tml shall be my last day of training, and its a practical 1.. at plaza singapura.. u get to serve REAL customers tml le.. lol.. well, i do hab experiences but new enviroment needs time to adapt and some more promotions items and all are different from F n B.. u can't expect mi to ask if they wan tis shirt to go along wif drumlets right.. haha.. shall sleep early tonight, and tuned my alarm clock back to normal.. haa.. nights

when is it going to be MY day?

2007-01-09T15:52:00.000+08:00

now at home.. so bored sia.. yesterday morning go play tennis wif kiat, wilson and shihao after tat go gym.. wa.. feel so much different after tat.. walk oso got abit more confident plus got wind.. lol.. then evening time go play billiard wif the same ppl again.. wa.. wad a day.. tired lo.. go home bath then slp liao.. somemore i sore throat, haven recover yet.. voice oso changed liao.. sian ah.. at home boring lo..

bad aura!!!

2007-01-07T02:24:00.000+08:00

yes! i am someone who falls in love easily.. but hey, dun mistaken, i'm not someone who changes gerfriend every single day.. once i fall in love, i will lock on to tat target and love her wholeheartly.. tis is me!!

no words can describe my mo0d now....

2007-01-05T23:39:00.000+08:00

been listening to this song sang by jay - tui hou.. hmm.. i ord got 3 weeks le ba.. hais.. can't even find a stupid job.. no $$ ah.. how??? sian manz.. dunno how to describe my feeling.. juz feel tat something is missing in my life.. without it, my life wun be complete.. and the BIG problem is, i dunno wad it is and wad cause me to feel tis way.. wad is happening?? hais.. damn sian lo.. life has nv been perfect for mi, neither is it interesting.. although there are much more ppl who are unfortunate than i do, couldn't help but feel tat way.. enough of my mood telling le.. fall sick last sunday, guess wad.. its new year eve.. i got no choice but to stay at home.. sian.. dunno wad to blog liao la..

2006-11-18T17:01:00.000+08:00

ohh no.. i promise to update the blog often.. yet more than 1 month i still haven update.. haha.. sorry guys.. lol.. ok.. here i am today.. so free.. cos no 1 is at home today.. my family went to bangkok yesterday evening.. leaving mi alone at home.. but i enjoy it.. lol.. christmas is coming, wad wish do u guys hab? i wish to be attached soon.. lol.. miss the feeling of having a gf.. wahaha.. but no point finding some1 u dun like.. so, it still takes time.. i WAN go shopping.. i wan to buy new clothes, shoes, pants and alot alot alot.. lol.. yesterday went to vivocity, wif elrica.. she's working at zara.. waited to her to finish work then we went to buy tickets le.. we watched "final call" a horror show.. i ate Carl's Jr as well.. i was so damn hungry lo, cos my last meal was yesterday morning.. nobody at home and tat means no dinner for mi.. wait til 11 then eat sia.. haha.. oh ya, i received a xmas present from elrica.. hmm, she bought a shirt for mi.. and tat so nice of her, the shirt very nice.. frankly speaking, i'm surprised and touched cos i dun rmb any1 giving mi xmas present b4.. lol.. wonder wad to buy for her.. any1 hab any suggestion? lol.. tonight meeting kiat le.. dunno go where.. tonight then decide.. anyway i dun think i'm coming hime tonight.. i think i should gif up le, spent too much time on her le.. she dun appreciate of all the things i've done for her.. when there's something in tis world is not urs, it will nv be urs.. k la.. i wanna go bath le..

2006-10-09T01:02:00.000+08:00

juz came back home from jurong point.. watch "world trade center" wif xiaowei.. supposely start at 9.40 de.. end up we 10.15 then went in.. haha.. miss the front part by around 15 mins.. sian.. the show not bad lo.. quite touching.. seriously muz salute those police involved in the 911 thingie.. they are very brave lo.. hmm.. saw chang at jpph today afternoon, hab a talk wif him.. hmm.. like so long nv see him liao lo.. haa.. then at nite i saw anthony again.. lol.. wad a day to hab met so many ex pizzaian.. k la.. tats all for today le.. now go chat wif weiwei le..

stupid haze!!

2006-10-06T23:58:00.000+08:00

back home today.. so now free to blog.. didn't hab any interesting thing happen in camp cos its the same routine everyday.. went to eat steamboat wif xiaowei and her fren on tue.. after tat we went to a pub name jab1 at circular rd.. stayed there til around 5 plus b4 i return to camp straight.. so freaking tired manz.. i think i got sleeping disorder leh.. dunno y tis week can't really slp well.. end up now like going to fall sick liao.. some more the stupid haze makes it worse.. difficulty breathing etc.. hais.. stupid indonesia.. fishing idiot.. hmm.. temporary i only hab tis much to blog.. going to zZz le.. nights guys..

am i useless?

2006-10-02T02:54:00.000+08:00

wanted to update juz now at 2.50am.. when i was abt to begin, xiaowei called mi.. so we chat til now lo.. hmm.. acc kiat go cut hair tis afternoon b4 i proceed home to prepare to go out lo.. i was rushing lidat lo.. cos i dun wan to be late.. went to watch "stay alive" wif xiaowei.. a horror show.. perhaps the show wasn't too good cos it only last for 1 hr and 20 mins.. kinda short to mi, cos the ending was like very fast finish lo.. maybe some parts of the show scare u ba, due to the sound effects.. after the show, we went home le lo.. omg, the taxi driver dun really noe the way back to my hse from bkit panjang.. he didn't se the expressway KJE.. he use small roads instead.. i noe quite fast but got alot of traffic lights ma.. midnite traffic is very smooth lo.. so tats y maybe the fare is cheaper ba.. cheaper by 5 dollars lo.. haha.. she complain to mi alot from her work and can see tat her work really gif her alot of stress lo.. anyway, relax k, tml will always be a better day.. juz do ur part well.. am i useless? i always said tat i wanted to gif up yet i always fang bu xia.. i dunno y lo.. hais.. dunno y i love her tat much and i'm still hoping someday we can be together.. even though we are not together, there are stil times when we will quarrel.. hope it wun add on to ur stress ba.. all i can say is i'm sorry and i still love u as each day passes.. now is 3.34am le.. gonna wake up 6 am later.. omg, got to book in to the stupid camp.. anyway 2 more months only.. jia you.. bryan, u can endure through de.. speaking of oct.. another 21 days would be a special day.. liking her for 1 yr.. and oso waiting for her for 1 yr le.. haa.. going to slp le.. damn tired.. if not later can't wake up le.. nights xiaowei and to the rest of u.. sugar dreams..

2006-09-30T13:33:00.000+08:00

wa.. so long nv update le.. hmm.. u guys muz be missing my updates right.. haha.. anyway, didn't really hab anything interesting to blog.. the only interesting thing should be DEC is coming.. haha.. going to OOOOOOORRRRRRRRDDDDDDD LO.. haha.. waited 2 yrs for tis day.. time realy flies, from enlistment to POP, from new bird to old bird and eventually ord.. although army sucks but there are happy times inside too.. do all those kuku thing together.. hahaha.. hmm.. boon oso enlist for army le.. tats his 3rd week inside.. br0.. jia you, BMT is fun.. haha.. bo0k out muz rmb to call us k.. juz met him for supper last nite and find tat he more muscular le.. haha.. OMG.. hmm.. xiao wei ah, dun worry abt work so much ba.. always rmb tat tml will be a better day.. good luck comes after bad luck.. as for feifei, recently study so much, n lvl sure can do well de.. hab confidence.. tats the most important thing.. dun stress urself.. after ur exams, we shall go enjoy together k.. haa.. tats all for now ba.. wanna go bath le.. shall update soon.. cya guys

wo hAo xiAng nI~~

2006-07-13T23:02:00.000+08:00

its been so long since my last update.. juz didn't hab the mood to update ba.. i dun really noe where to start, or maybe i dun hab any interesting things to blog abt ba.. its the same routine tat happens everyday without fail.. guess only army life are keeping mi busy.. making mi crazy every single day.. i do wish i could ORD soon without seeing all those mother f***er!!! am i really very difficult to get along wif? y do i always wif problems wif my ppl higher ranks than mine.. is my temper really very bad? within 1 month i quarrel wif 3 CSM in a row.. wad is wrong wif mi?? y do i get along wif everybody else including officers but juz not the 3 of them.. y are they so fcuked up?? i've done a survey and i'm not the only 1 tat hate them.. i suppose i'm the only 1 who talk back at them.. serving 1 boss is enough, my principle is simple.. serve 1 boss and tats it.. y do u wan to come and disturb us when wadever we do is none of ur business.. my boss din say anything and u wan to disturb us.. i had a talk wif my boss, fortunately he listened to mi.. as his subordinate, he should help mi in some way, in fact i knew he helped us in some way maybe we dunno.. he could be in a position where he dunno who to help, so i really appreciate him and i respect him.. tats y i always serve under him and no more.. my job scope in army is very simple, a few hrs of duty and the rest of the time, i'm free.. so is few days, i went over to the spect mess wif my fren who is a specialist.. the rules are specialist can bring a guest in which is mi.. tis "guy" came in and he wanted to play the mahjong machine which is located in the same room as the billiard table.. he walked in and shout, what are u 2 doing here.. oh my god, tis room only got a mj machine and a billiard table wif balls on it and we are holding the cues.. wad do u think we are doing?? swimming? use ur head and think then.. when u lose to some1 through mouth, dun use ur rank.. i despise officers who abuse their rank.. i'm gonna wait til i ORD and i shall tolerate.. dun every let mi see u outside.. once i'm a civilian, u can do nothing to mi.. wad is a "extra" by then..

s0medAy u will wAn mi baCk, but i wun??

2006-05-23T19:53:00.000+08:00

hmm.. its been days since i last bl0g.. anyway last sat i went to my grandma hse for gathering.. all mothers' dinner.. so long nv see my uncle's son and daughter liao.. wa lau.. they become cuter liao lo.. cute sia.. then i play wif them and carry them around lo.. so cute~~ can.. someday i gonna be a father soon.. but not so early perhaps.. it would be great if u hab a son of ur own.. hehe.. gonna daydream my future.. haax.. as usual sunday went for my lion dance practice, tis time round lao jiao liao cos there are new trainees coming for training.. we only teach them and exercise wif them.. after tat i went to kiat hse play winning 11, using barcelona as our team and conquer the league.. lol.. after tat around 10 plus liao le lo, so go home lo.. sian cos monday hab to bo0k in to camp ma.. anyway yesterday was my mummy birthday.. she tot tat we hab forgotten abt her birthday le ans she lo0k quite sad, but she din realise we had surprise coming up for her.. around 8.30 lidat, i told her tat i going out to meet my fren, end up i go over to the lift and waited for her outside the lift wif the cake.. light the candle outside and walk back to our home, once my 2nd sister saw our shadow coming she switched off the light and we sing the birthday song while walking into the hse.. haha.. can see my mother touched lo.. face and eyes oso abit red red liao.. my sisters bought a pearl necklace tat cost around $300++ for her.. hmm.. glad tat my mum is happy.. today nothing unusual leh as tml got outfield, dun think i'll be home tml.. cos by the time the exercise end will be around 9 plus liao.. hais, how to bo0k out.. tml exercise is only a minor 1 and there is a major exercise name "Tiger Stride" coming on the 5th of june til 9th of june.. sian manz.. a 4 days exercise..

i think my feelings are dead.. i dunno.. sometimes lo0king at her photo, i dun hab tat kind special feeling anymore.. but i still love her.. i dunno y am i feeling lidat.. isit a sign tat i'm going to gif up? maybe its becos we are not as close as last time le, we dun meet up often.. half of mi doesn't wan to gif up.. cos i believe someday she will come back again.. but now i'm battling hard against my own feelings.. theres a quote "One day you will love me as much as I loved you, one day you will think of me as I thought of you, one day you will cry for me as I cried for you, one day you will want me but I won't want you." tis always happen in reality.. isn't it? but i nv wanted it to end tis way.. hais~~

drifting further and further....... ...... ......

2006-05-20T14:54:00.000+08:00

hais~~ i dunno wad to bl0g, i dunno how to start.. in short, my mood dun feel go0d.. i miss u more as each day gone by.. i feel our distance are getting further and further.. maybe things will nv be the same again..

life seems getting dull

2006-05-17T19:00:00.000+08:00

i'm so happy.. tell ya something u all are not going to believe.. my hp bills hits a all time low.. $34.11.. haha.. 1st time manz, i was shocked when i open my bills juz now.. hmm.. i hope it continues to be low.. lidat then i can save $$.. but at the same time, it means xiaowei and mi seldom contact le.. hais.. my hope of her returning getting lesser, am i giving up soon? i dunno.. i feel l0st, i juz can't seems to find my way out.. hais.. let see how ba.. anwyay heard news tat i'm going outfield soon.. next week 1 day and on june will be a 4 days outfield.. b0ring manz.. hais.. no choice, lan lan lo.. hais.. y do i keep sighing today?? y things always dun go my way? how i hope it DO go my way, at least once.. hais..

come on bryan.. be happy~~
y should i let things bother mi?
where is the happy go lucky bryan i used to be?? wif alot of craps..

loving someone is not easy

2006-05-13T20:38:00.000+08:00

was at home the whole day today.. mood not good.. feeling sad and disappointed.. awaken by xiaowei msg in the afternoon around 12 plus.. i dunno wad she wan and wad she thinks.. after i told her tat i met my fren for movie last night and her mood change.. she nv reply mi, awhile later i msg her if she is busy and y didn't reply mi and she said she's not busy and she didn't wan to disturb mi and my FRIEND.. so i reply she's juz a fren of mine and she reply back she hab no right to care who i go out wif.. i called her, indeed she's angry.. she too trying to make mi angry by saying something abt her and her bf.. tat disappoints mi.. how u think i would feel everytime u and ur bf hugs kisses and wad normal couple would do.. have u thought abt my feelings?? i merely went out wif my fren, no hugs, no kisses definitely nothing else.. wad is there to be angry abt? i need a life too k.. u already hab him and u like torturing mi huh.. letting mi hab a taste of lonelyness.. hais, y are u been so selfish.. i really hate my life.. i hate everything in tis world..

i still miss u

2006-05-13T02:57:00.000+08:00

hmm.. its been days since i last update le.. anyway friday is a public holiday again.. haha.. so many public holidays.. so good cos no need to report to camp ma.. anyway last nite i went over to kiat hse to overnite again cos today got chu shi ma.. today was so shag manz.. sneezing throughout the whole day.. think i'm falling sick soon.. but its 0kay.. haha.. i noe how to take care of myself.. anyway, yesterday i got to noe fr0m kiat tat sharon had a bf already.. hmm, maybe its a go0d thing tat she force u to forget her, in fact she didn't msg u or call u.. cos she doesn't wan u to be more sad after learning the truth.. right? yes, u do feel hurt and sad now, think abt it, wouldn't u be more hurt and sad if u noe the truth now even if yesterday or any other day both of u are so close.. right? always think positive, think on the bright side.. anything de hua, can call mi out la kopi.. both of our love life doesn't seems successful.. anyway, wad we going now is part of our life lo.. bad patch.. dun worry, rest assure it will be over soon.. sweet comes after bitter.. rmb? and regarding ur advices.. i dunno how to explain but i think i will stick to my heart even if my heart will lie to mi cos tats mi, my character.. i noe u will support mi no matter wad right.. cheer up k br0.. juz now went to watch movie wif geraldine at jurong point.. we watch "poseidon".. quite a nice show ba.. i rate 3 out of 5.. go watch if u guys haven watch k.. after tat went home liao lo.. nothing to do in particular.. i still miss u alot.. juz created a movie between mi and xiaowei using windows movie maker which kiat recommended mi.. wonder when will i ever hab the chance to show it to her.. in my dreams perhaps.. i'm so tired.. wanna go slp liao.. nites.. take care all my fren.. weird weather causeing sore throat and cough.. drink more water hor..

i'm watiting for u..
when will u be back??

am i a fo0l

2006-05-07T22:21:00.000+08:00

didn't update yesterday cos we help sin tua yew keng ma.. the distance was so long.. after tat john, paul, junjie, swee boon, kor kor and mi eat our dinner at sunshine place.. half way through, opposite our table sits 2 guys.. they were drinking beer and suddenly a ger came and shouted at them.. sensing something not right, john change seats cos the ger started throwing glasses and beer bottles but missed.. to mi, i tot the distance would be at least far enough to escape from the bottles pieces.. i was wrong, she hit it hard on the table and it hit my hand.. only then i realise tat my hand was bleeding.. knn.. lidat oso kanna.. nb.. kan sway lo.. nvm la.. she ger oso, can't do anything.. then the 3 of them shouted at each other arguing lo.. we eat finish liao faster go then again police stopped us ask us wad happen.. kaoz.. but nothing happen la.. juz ask us wad happen only lo.. after tat boon, kiat and mi sua to kelly chalet at chervons.. hais~~ the same room.. angsana~~.. then suddenly think back alot of things lo.. maybe i'm really stupid to like her in the 1st place? to believe her even after wad she had lied to mi? really think tat if i treat her good enough, someday she will be back?? or maybe i should say i dun even wan to admit tat she's not a good ger? am i juz consoling myself tat she really like mi and someday she will be back? gosh.. i'm really a idiot then.. can't i tell tat i'm juz a spare tyre? or did she really like mi? no 1 noes.. only she noes the ans.. and from wad i analyse tis few days.. i think i'm a super duper stupid idiot fool.. tis is wad i think, she claim she like mi but she hab deeper feelings for him, the only thing y she would msg mi occaisonally is becos she doesn't wan to let mi go, cos i care alot for her.. even if her bf dun care abt her, she still got a 2nd 1 outside which is mi.. right? doesn't confess to him tat we are together and end up they got back together.. always prepare reasons to tell him.. when they broke up, cos it was him who suggested juz becos joshua told him tat i wanted to woo her too.. y she would wan to meet mi the next day is becos she's lonely, imagine everynite he would fetch her from work and too bad friday she got to go home alone.. so she asked mi to acc her.. actual thing is she doesn't wan to think so much.. i'm juz a passerby to gave her a helping hand when she needed some1 to be there for her.. tis is wad i think la.. or maybe i think too much le.. i'm really tired.. wad should i do?? tis is driving mi crazy.. imagine she msg mi tis afternoon, and i happen to told her tat i was somewhere near her hse, guess wad, she msg mi juz now and ask mi where am i.. i would think tat her bf is sending her home and she doesn't wan mi to see them.. u understand ma? she thinks tat i dunno.. i asked her y and she told mi she's juz asking lo.. am i really stupid or wad.. to be frank la, i can really be a cb kia wan lo.. i think i should be 1.. y should i make myself suffer and see ppl happy.. am i born into tis world to suffer? let mi tell u something, there's no retribution, good guys always hab retribution yet bad guys dun.. u understand ma? i'm breaking them up.. i will try my ways and means.. damn to u ass hole.. there's another bryan borning soon.. dun be shocked.. no use been so kind hearted, no 1 will appreciate.. trust mi.. tis world juz sucks manz..

living in a world wif no life

2006-05-05T23:31:00.000+08:00

juz reached home not long.. last nite was at kiat hse then tis morning go work for ah teck.. kaoz.. work from morning til afternoon only earn $7.5 per person.. haha.. cos of miscommunication.. anyway sua le lo.. haha.. anyway after tat went for lion dancing.. 2 dragons and 2 lions.. went to 2 places, jurong west and bukit batok.. even if last week joshua did not saw u at the family gathering.. my frens will oso saw it.. juz now julia called mi and told mi she saw a guy was holding xiaowei hand and even send her home.. she asked mi if i knew it.. and i say i noe but i did not told her wad actally happen cos i think wad over is over.. let fate decide wad he wanna do.. if u really love some1, let her go.. if she's meant to be urs, she will return to u eventually.. if not she will be gone for good.. fate love disturbing couple so wad can i say? i would let fate decide eventually.. our distances are getting further, sms are getting lesser like those time when i juz noe u.. i hope if 1 day u come back, pls forget the past and make up ur mind.. for now, i still miss u alot as days passed by.. u are always on my mind no matter wad..

take good care of urself
i'm waiting for u..
i miss u bibi~~

i miss u so much

2006-05-05T02:41:00.000+08:00

i'm now at ah kiat hse.. decided to stay overnite at his hse cos tml morning working wif hm.. anyway i'm off tml ma.. everything did not go as planned last week.. so changed of plan tml lo.. hais.. i still miss u so much.. i did try to see other gers, but no matter how many gers i c, i still feel u are the 1 for mi.. i still hab feelings for u the most.. tat doesn't mean i'm going to gif up okay.. i'm already 20 yrs old.. if i dun fight for the 1 i love.. then when am i going to settle down? my feelings for u will not change til the day i go.. everythings i do and everyday of my life seems to remind mi of u.. i juz can't help but miss u so much.. when are we going back to those days.. all i need is a chance.. and i promise i can gif u happiness..

i'm still waiting for u.. do u noe tat?
i miss u bibi~~

missing u

2006-05-04T18:56:00.000+08:00

listening to: wo de cuo

juz reach home after staying in camp for 2 fcuking days.. all becos of the damn activation tat cause mi to stay.. anyway, tis 3 days were damn shag.. really very tired manz.. therefore, i insist on taking off tml.. tml friday le, we even hab plan to go out tml, but think its all over.. its like going to 1 week soon.. had a talk wif alot of ppl and i heard alot of advices.. if i really love some1, i will forgive all her mistakes and wrongs.. after i heard tis, i feel tat its true.. i used to hab a gf who 2 timer mi 2 times yet i forgive her too.. end up she was oso the 1 who broke up wif mi and its like happen like 4 yrs ago? after listening to them and i think all over again.. i confirm my target in a more clearer mind.. all i can do now is wait wait and wait.. tis few days, i miss her alot, really alot.. but she's no longer by my side le.. all i can do is to think back all those memories tat we once shared.. sweet yet heart pain too.. thinking all the promises will nv be fulfilled.. shall go bath le.. thanks my fren for urs advice.. u all stood by mi when i needed some1..

w0rld without xiaowei

2006-05-02T02:07:00.000+08:00

listening to: Wo Ai De Ren (Chen Xiao Chun)

my mood:
i'm feeling terrible and lonely.. slept around 4 plus last nite.. even though i was damn tired, i juz can't get to slp.. i cried myself to slp.. and i didn't expect to wake up in tears too.. when i wake up, i feel sour and a sharp pain in my heart.. i dun think i can take it much longer.. i miss u alot.. how i wish u were by my side again like u promise.. its juz tat i nv noe u early enough.. 2 plus le, hab to report back to camp later, i still can't slp.. breaking down soon.. i can't take it much longer.. let mi hold on a little while longer.. my phone was so silent today.. whenever my phone rang or message beep, how i wish it was ur name i would see.. but i always ended up disappointed.. i'm not going to give up.. i dun wan to live in a world without u, its u who hab brought in colours to my life, without u my world are black and white again, i dun wan life without u.. i miss u bibi~~ :'(

wo ai de ren

2006-05-01T11:07:00.000+08:00

listening to: Wo Ai De Ren (Chen Xiao Chun)

my mo0d:
i'm hurt.. utterly hurt.. i can feel tat my heart are breaking into pieces.. is there any1 who experienced tis b4? i cried myself to slp last nite, and sadly i woke up in tears.. life after last nite will no longer be the same again.. u will no longer sms mi in the morning, no longer call mi, no longer miss mi, no longer hearing u call mi bibi and sadly no longer love mi.. thanks for all those sweet memories tat u gave mi.. its the beautiest memories i ever had.. tis few days i really feel happy and feel loved by u.. thank u.. nobody is ever perfect in tis world,we all make mistakes, as long as u wun make the same mistake again then u will feel happiness.. i hab met u at the wrong time.. i met the right person at the wrong time.. out of the 2 of us, u chose him.. u gave mi up to be wif him again.. my tears juz couldn't seems to stop flowing.. but i'm glad u tell mi rather i'm been kept in the dark again.. i hope u hab made the right choice, like wad i say, follow ur heart and if u think u love him more.. cherish him from now on..

xiaowei:
for u: bibi, now tat u hab finally back wif him again.. cherish wad u 2 hab k.. hab a good talk wif him.. juz to let u noe, if u ever need someone to talk to, u can always gif mi a call.. i'll always be right beside u watching over u.. i will not forget u de.. hope u wun forget mi too.. take care bi.. love u always.. :'(

friends:
thanks jun jie.. i noe even if the world turns its back on mi, i noe u wun.. thanks br0.. u too, dun think so much le k.. i believe some days she gonna msg u and call u, i believe tat day will come.. i'm glad i still hab u.. i understand wad u all say to mi is wei le wo hao.. but if u all put urself in my shoes then it will be a different case.. i noe u all will do the same thing like i did.. wad u all gave mi are advices, i do listen to them but i juz couldn't bring myself to do them.. like wad u say, no matter wad i do, u will support mi cos we are br0s right.. thanks.. i'm really lucky to hab found a group of close br0s..

hAppy birthdAy j0shuA~~~

2006-04-23T22:59:00.000+08:00

listening to: Yue Ding (Guang Liang)

juz finish bathing.. whole day was out lion dancing.. super shag manz.. help kang zhou chu tua ti ji.. knn.. fucked up.. shan say y.. the dragon (sha long) fucking big and heavy.. still hab to walk a distance.. nvm la.. fun oso la.. then here comes the ye guang long.. stage was so small, how are we going to jump.. put so many of their stupid flag la, weapons blocking the way.. nvm la.. wad over is over.. sian manz.. life is so fucked up.. its juz nv going my way.. y isit so? qian shi ying, jing shi guo.. hais~~ whatever.. i should be content.. i still hab my family, my br0s~~ and lastly xiaowei.. these are the ppl tat are keeping my life happy and enjoyable.. thanks ppl~~.. next sunday bi shan ting liao.. haha.. next week shagness then say ba.. arghzz.. i wan to ORD~~.. 8 more months.. i wan a bike license.. all tis are my dreams~~.. its not impossible to succeed.. its a matter of if i got the heart.. arghz~~~.. nvm la.. shag ah.. wan to go go slp liao.. nights to all my br0s~~..

2006-04-22T00:25:00.000+08:00

bored is the word to describe my life now.. everyday hab to wake up at 6 juz to report to the stupid camp.. went to music underground on wed nite.. wif xiaowei and wendy.. her fren.. anyway went to devils bar too.. juz tat i no mood le so left early lo.. leaving the 2 of them behind.. hais.. now think back.. bad of mi.. hais.. shan elaborate on wad causes mi to abandon them.. maybe its mi who is sensitive lo.. juz tat i got alot of questions inside my heart.. i dunno wad is true and fake.. how do i separate between true and fake.. indeed i got the ans to the question tat morning.. i got home and msg her.. i got to noe wad i wanted to noe.. although there are times when she would be so sweet tat could melt my heart.. its true.. and i'm still waiting for ur ans.. i'm confident.. forget ur past, pursue ur future.. ur future will definitely be better than ur past.. and is alot better i promise.. i would definitely let u feel loved..

hais.. dunno y my leg so itchy.. i think got rashes ah.. hais.. very itchy ah.. did a spring cleaning on my ro0m juz now.. even change the bed sheet.. h0pe it will be better tml ba.. tml hab to go for dragon dance training becos sunday is reaching le.. hais.. i really dun like dragons de.. but no choice becos of br0thers i hab to play too.. hais.. nvm la.. learn to like then.. nothing special to bl0g liao.. bye

2006-04-14T16:20:00.000+08:00

listening to: Ling (Ke You Lun)

back fr0m chalet.. not today but yesterday la.. too tired to bl0g yesterday le.. i did enjoy my chalet there.. although not alot of ppl yet still so enjoying.. the 1st day was f0r pizza hut ex colleague.. p0y wasn't there cos he hab to go f0r his reservist.. as f0r the 2nd day was my sec sch cum lion dance frens there.. received quite alot of presents.. watch, bracelet, shirt t-shirt and a Brandy XO wif a model inside.. xiaowei gave mi a bottle of perfume.. HUGO BOSS.. she say she like guys wif tis smell.. haha.. xia0wei was there on the 2nd day too.. i was dead drunk on wed nite.. got xiaowei to take care of mi.. end up her hand got blue black becos of mi.. haha.. after tat thurs check out liao lo.. then went out wif xiaowei again to celebrate my birthday.. we went to bugis to sh0p.. bought a kimono for her.. she lo0ks so beautiful and cute on it.. hehe.. after tat we went V8 cafe to hab our breakfast cum lunch..

tis is beef lasagne.. lo0k so yummy.. hmmm~~

chicken wing delight.. its so cripsy lo.. damn tasty.. hmmm~~

she ate seafo0d pineapple rice.. drools~~

see~~ so tasty.. yummy yummy~~ hmmm~~
went back home after watching movie.. we watch "EIGHT BELOW".. not a bad show i suppose.. juz tat i was sleepy tats all.. free then bl0g ba.. nothing to blog liao.. gonna go bath b4 going for dragon dance training.. cya guys.. once again.. thank u for all those presents..

birthday reaching!! lalalala~~

2006-04-08T02:18:00.000+08:00

listening to: Yue Ding (Guang Liang)

been listening to tis song recently.. its really a nice song.. after tong hua a few yrs back, tis is another song tat i like by him again.. last fri was my 2nd sis ROM.. hehe.. to0k leave to attend f0llow by a dinner after tat.. hmm.. dunno wad to bl0g.. anyway my birthday is reaching soon.. chalet will start on the tue.. *winks *winks.. i hope everything will go my way.. i guess i'll be happy the next week? will i? lets c next week..

for u~~ how long are u gonna make mi wait? doesn't the past 6 months meant anything? i chose to believe u and i believe tat u are not gonna let mi down.. juz be frank wif mi and i can take it.. short pain and hurt would be better than long period.. how i wish i noe wad were u thinking.. am i juz a passer by to u or am i too good for u to let mi go? or even maybe i met the right ger at the wrong time or the wrong ger at the wrong time.. i'm not gonna listen to anything.. juz tell mi wad u wan.. i wish to get a life.. GET A LIFE~~ or are u gonna get sick of mi someday.. whatever it is, time is running out..

Ministry Of Sound

2006-03-26T03:29:00.000+08:00

listening to: Gan Xin Ti Dai Ni (Ekin Cheng)

juz reach home.. went to MOS juz now.. together wif xiao wei, huiting, esther, evon, evon's sis, swee boon, siew yong, joshua and some of evon frens.. well, too many ppl le.. we reach there around 10pm.. the queue then wasn't long.. but those R n B room all almost packed.. so we no choice but to go to the main arena.. the music sucks i suppose.. no seats.. stand throughout.. and of cos we went to the dance floor and dance too.. as usual, damn packed.. joshua was wif his frens most of the time.. haax.. anyway the trip there overall not bad ba.. not wad i expected.. siew yong and boon leave 1st then mi and xiao wei go hab our supper.. 24hrs mac.. damn full now.. after tat then take cab home liao.. when we were leaving, evon juz reach mac.. haha.. anyway, to0k some pics there wif xiao wei 6 mega pixel camera.. lol.. today is the 1st time xiao wei was introduce to them and anyway she mixes wif them quite well.. crazy together.. o0ps.. anyway tats good ba.. haha.. going to slp soon liao.. if not i'm falling sick.. nights..

i'm so tired!!

2006-03-19T15:30:00.000+08:00

listening to: Ai Cuo (Wong Lee Hom)

recently keep listening to tis song and find it really very nice.. haha.. keep repeating and repeating.. hehe.. anyway, i'm back from chalet le.. went to the chalet since friday, met up wif swee hao and went to taka lo0k jun jie.. cos say wanna go together ma.. chalet was organise by siew yong, esther , hui ting and some of the gers ba.. anyway, it's like a gathering for us all lo, ever since after graduating from sec sch and most of us are busy wif their own things.. thanks to the gers for the idea.. should be around 4 yrs nv see them le.. while i was busy working in pizza hut for 2 yrs and now busy N.S, they oso busy wif their studies.. anyway we reach around 10 plus lo.. then we play a game call indian poker.. i keep losing which i dunno y and therefore hab to drink the liquor mix wif sunkist orange.. eEe yucks~~ manz.. taste really horrible.. then in high mode liao.. haha.. begin a joker le.. do stunts.. haha.. then follow by headache.. lol.. ah boon i think more worse, he drink 1 cup nia then keep vomiting.. there goes my 3 days 2 nights there.. really going to slp liao.. damn shag lo.. haax.. cya

super sIanz manz

2006-03-16T22:29:00.000+08:00

listening to: Gui Ji (Jay Chou)

it's a boring day for mi manz.. as usual went to camp.. and gosh, i was late.. perhaps i'm too tired le ba.. after a long day yesterday lion dancing.. went to our big supporter for some yew keng.. so called yew keng la.. 4 lion and 1 dragon.. go there PK ppl.. haha.. anyway reach home around 1 plus.. super shag manz.. juz now went to jp walk walk and i discover tat nowadays kids are getting more and more xia lan le.. haha.. walk oso 386, pierce ear.. hair oso haven grow finish.. some more height so short.. haha.. o0ps.. anyway, i oso dun care.. u dun step on my tail can liao.. went by pizza hut and saw tat it's under renovation le.. suddenly think bring mi back to those times when i was still working there.. it was fun.. really fun.. enjoy my time in there wif all those staffs and managers.. poy, eric, ceyi blah blah blah.. too many names to mention le.. including those malay staffs too.. u guys rocks manz.. really brighten and brought laughter and fun in there.. ever since i quit for ns, eric and poy left too.. and soon jpph are left wif new staffs and managers le.. hais.. now i think back, i realise tat i got feeling for jpph le.. thinking tat soon it will be renovated.. and all those memories will be gone for good.. cos i noe i will nv find a place tat lo0k like jpph again.. the same atmosphere, same staffs, same smell and even same tables and settings arrangements.. feel sad lo.. really felt sad.. if i can go back to the past, i will definitely choose the time i started working in there.. hais~~
shan t0k abt it anymore, it would only make mi sadder.. finally tml friday le.. ahh~~ chatlet time lo~~ haha.. shall blog again soon.. tata..

2006-03-07T19:52:00.000+08:00

listening to: xiAng yU tAi zAo

been so b0red recently, loss of sleep at night.. what the hell am i doing and wad am i thinking.. i juz can't help but think of so many things tat happen recently.. hais~~ back in camp, there's a new guy who had juz join us.. he's been here for around 1 month le, yet he doesn't wan to learn.. so wad if u are a 'A' lvl student, get this right i dun gif it a damn about it.. it's a must tat u learn, it's not like how u say..

me: hey, salute tis officer ar..
-car go past and he din salute-
me: hey i tot i asked u to salute juz now? he officer leh
him: aiya, no need la.. i dun see it a point to salute loh
me: wtf, muz lo.. i dun expect u to noe who they are, i juz wan u to noe tat he's a officer and tat u salute him b4 we all get into trouble..
him: aiya, nvm de la.. i dun see it a point to salute loh, u get wad i mean?
me: fuck u!! whatever~~

when i was here for the 1st month last yr, i manage to remember those officers cars as i do not wan to get into trouble.. i wan to ORD peacefully by the end of the yr.. hais~~ juz went for her birthday party last sunday.. happen to saw my sec sch fren, he happen to noe her too, but not very well, through xiaowei fren oso.. at least i wun be bored there.. at clementi de party world.. stress stress stress.. i'm l0st.. i dunno wad to do.. i need some1 to t0k to.. help me~~~

sn0w ciTy is fUn~!~!~

2006-02-28T13:50:00.000+08:00

listening to: sMoke mAchiNe

juz reach home fr0m snow city.. went there as a big group today.. cos paid by my camp officer.. it was so fun.. though its abit small.. only got snow fights and a 3 storey high slide.. anyway i still enjoy myself.. hehe.. there goes my half day and here i am here blogging.. hehe.. doesn't hab much thing to blog.. go bath liao.. tata..

pics tat i pr0mise to p0st

2006-02-23T20:34:00.000+08:00

baCk baCk baCk

2006-02-23T20:07:00.000+08:00

listening to: Ai Yi Ge Ren Hao Nan (William So)

back to blogging.. it's been a long time.. cos was busy.. chinese new yr busy bai nian and chu shi.. really enjoy myself during the new yr.. together wif jun jie they all helping he quan chu shi.. lots of fun and laughter.. but damn, it was shag man.. imagine from morning 8 plus til 9 plus at night.. roaming around spore ppl houses.. really a busy month tat i couldn't even hab the time to meet shufa, edwin, poy and anthony.. haha.. sorry guys.. will meet u all soon k.. my ang bao $$ is so little tis yr.. but actually every yr oso very little.. haha.. no choice, grow up liao so they wun gif u de lo..

jun jie br0 ROM le.. last thursday (16/2/06) congratulations kor kor.. went to his hse for buffet last week.. exactly 1 week le.. reach his hse around 6 plus cos camp book out late ma.. anyway stayed at his hse til 9 then go out le.. go meet xiaowei.. met her in clementi then take train to cineleisure le.. wanted to watch THE FOG de.. but then the time available was 1.55am.. late liao lo end up watch pink panther at 11.55pm instead.. a funny movie tat will laugh off ur teeth.. after buying the tickets we go MAESTRO eat.. hmm.. it's located on the 2nd floor.. she haven eat ma then acc her go eat.. we share a set of steaks & chips, strawberry fizz, lemon fresh and a strawberry berry sundae.. as usual, main course steak was serve 1st.. guess wad? she cut the 1st slice and feed mi.. wow, so sweet lo.. tian zai xin li.. i cut the whole steaks into small bits for her to eat.. hahaha.. sweet right.. :p after the movie we took some pics outside cheers then we went home liao.. bought a bouquet of flowers and send it to her work place the next day.. shall post the pics later.. shan talk abt my camp.. nothing interesting, scare later u all will fall asleep.. wa.. i type so many words liao.. shall st0p le.. stop all my craps.. like i promise juz now, below are the pics.. enjoy..

CNY reAching.. aNg p0w!!!

2006-01-24T21:43:00.000+08:00

listening to: yi sheng ai ni yi ge (Ekin Cheng)

cny reaching soon.. haha.. let mi wish everyone xing nian kuai le, sheng ti jian kang.. cai yuan gun gun lai, shun shun li li.. haax.. tml is my last working day for tis week cos thur is my camp anniversary.. so everybody will go to sentosa for outing.. then i'm on leave on friday.. whoo hoo~~..

sianz sia.. human's nature tends to reveal more abt themselves as times goes by.. 1 great example is my camp sergnant.. they act good when u 1st came to the camp, when ur upperstudy is abt to ORD soon.. clearing their leave time, tat is the time they wanna play their ranks.. they wanna show power.. hello!!! dun think tat 2 months ago i was posted to HQ8SAB as an RP represents anything.. tat doesn't mean tat i juz post out of tekong.. i'm a newly PTE.. hey, i hab been in the army for 1 yr + liao.. i admit. i'm a problem boy, stubborn.. tats y i'm not promoted yet.. if u think tat i'm easy to eat.. think again!!! u are fcuking wr0ng!!!! u aRe messing wif the wr0ng guy.. if u wanna play rank wif mi.. rest assure, i will play MY authorithy and my appointment wif u.. if standing order is all u ask.. i'm gonna go by the bo0k and chaRge u for every single thing tat u commited.. i'll be happy to hab u serving ur extra duty during weekend.. how's tat?? let mi fcuking say 1 more time, dUn meSs wif mE!!!! i'm easy to get al0ng as long as u dun cr0ss over to my path..

alright.. i think i'm over agitated liao.. shall relax myself by listening to some music.. can't wait for my birthday to reach liao.. haha.. excited le.. hmm.. free then update again..

bAck to blogGing..

2006-01-18T23:36:00.000+08:00

listening to: Jie Kou (Jay Chou)

finAlly back to blogging.. maybe today juz got the mo0d ba.. haax.. anyway, tis is a new yr le.. 2006.. finally the year to ORD lo!!!!.. not so fast la.. maybe in another 11 months time.. long sia.. but its okay.. hmm.. so far, everything is fine for mi at the moment.. nothing special.. juz went on a shopping spree last week.. spending more than $300+ for clothes.. haax.. quite satisfied wif my results.. haax.. went bugis and queensway for all my shopping.. paradise manz.. i'm definitely going again, maybe after new yr? hehe..

so long nv update le, now dunno wad to say.. hmm.. my new yr resolutions? let mi think, i hope to get a new CPU, more $$$, clothes, a new TV and a DVD player, a new sh0es.. and hopefully can get licence by the end of tis yr.. i think not possible ba.. tats all for my resolutions.. guys, help mi wif some.. wahahaha.. birthday coming in april.. o0ps.. juz kidding..

actually mi planning a chalet for my birthday tis yr leh.. left wif tue, wed and thur liao.. weekend all fully booked.. sianz.. at chervons.. cheap manz.. $100 for 3 days 2 nights.. everything included.. there's a swimming pool, bbq pit, tv, dvd player, mahjong table.. some more it's a double storey ro0m.. perfect manz.. near to every1.. anyway, mi still planning.. cfm liao then let u all noe, make sure u all come okay? lol.. haax.. hmm.. tats all 4 today.. try to update soon.. tata..

swAy swAy sWay

2005-12-21T23:56:00.000+08:00

listening to: Fa Ru Xue (Jay Chou)

hmm.. it's been a long time since i last blog.. maybe only 1 week plus ba.. hehe.. hmm.. tis week i am at yew tee provost camp.. MP camp.. on course ma.. RP course.. 2 weeks.. hmm.. everyday only 8 to 5.. but then at quite strict ar.. no illegal items allow.. make mi hab to chg my phone temporary.. quite shiok ba.. everyday oso theory lessons.. make mi wanna fall asleep liao.. lol.. anyway.. mi so sway.. gonna hab guard duty on sat.. WTF.. xmas eve lo.. y mi so sway de.. when someone luck's down.. wad u do oso sway.. really damn sway lo.. hais.. but luckily nv kanna sunday or monday.. if not tat will be worse.. somemore i early early alreayd plan to gif her the present on sat le.. now gif mi tis kind of stunt.. hab to replan again.. shit manz..

i juz receive a letter.. claiming i owe NUH $140.. guess the date of the bill.. jan 2005 de.. wad the hell.. now dec le then u sent mi letter.. some more u nv send mi the bill lo.. u straight away send lawyer letter to mi.. gif mi 7 days.. wad the hell.. isn't it pay by government? i'm a NSF lo for goodness sake.. u think i wan to go c NUH de meh.. if not for tat time i got high fever, i wouldn't go at all lo.. high fever still nvm, i still rmb tat time i go NUH report sick for high fever, cannot recover end up hab to go polyclinic.. damn it.. recently my leg fracture right.. heard the 1st consultation is free.. subsiquently appointment hab to pay le.. wad the hell is tis rules.. no wonder the doc love giving mi medical appointment.. luckily last mon i nv go for my appointment.. shit.. if not hab to pay again.. i rather dun recover than seeing them again.. juz go there listen afew craps from the stupid doc then hab to pay $70 liao.. think wad.. i open bank ar.. wad the hell..

wento to pioneer mall wif my mum juz now.. bought another TV for her room de cos the 1 at home spoilt liao.. got one 21 inch tv used to sell for $179.. when i went today, it increase the price to $336 liao.. please lo.. ALCOM charging $336 for it.. it's not even SONY brand lo.. when i politly ask the salesman y suddenly increase the price.. his attitude is so damn fuck up..

me: er.. how much is tis tv huh?
salesman: $336 la
me: i tot it used to sell for $179?
salesman: increase liao la..
me: y suddenly increase..
salesman: Y THEY CANNOT INCREASE AR??? (raising his voice and getting abit impatient)
me: then ok lo.. get mi tis TV then.. end up my mum bought a AKIRA 21 inch TV for $169 and it's better looking than the ALCOM.. such attitude should nv be allowed there lo.. wad the hell.. pissed mi off.. dun wan to blog liao.. update next time..

sUnday!!!!!

2005-12-11T07:14:00.000+08:00

listening to: yi qi zuo guo de ri zi (Andy Lau)

juz reached home after a night of mahjong session at poy hse.. haha.. but b4 tat, i went to ps wif xing ling and shufa.. arounf evening lidat lo.. hmm.. i bought a wrist band and a bracelet.. the band is for mi la then the bracelet is for her.. hehe.. prepare to gif her on xmas eve.. shall post here the pic tonite? haha.. then tell mi if it's nice..

after ps, we go bukit timah plaza de pizza hut and look for poy.. then rot til 1 lidat then go his hse play.. haha.. hmm.. overall i won around $16 plus lo.. hmm.. qing chang shi yi, du chang de yi.. haha.. not sure wad it mean? ask mi and i'll tell u.. haha.. mi tired liao.. wan go slp le.. then later hab to go temple le.. hehe.. good morning..

christmas c0ming..

2005-12-08T21:54:00.000+08:00

its 8th of dec le.. tat means christmas is reaching and 2006 is reaching.. how time flies.. i'm in the army for 1 yr le.. which means i'm left wif 12 months to ORD lo.. been posted to keat hong camp as RP.. hmm.. got 1 month le ba.. i juz wan no trouble and serve finish the remaining 12 months.. no stunts, no trouble no nothing.. peace peace go through.. after tat then decide on studying shatec ba.. it's been my long time dream.. recently then found out tat actually i'm eligible for it..

hmm.. so far.. my luck hab been down.. there's a hokkien saying.. "lang sway qi jiao bian kong kway" let mi explain.. haha.. too chim? when a person is down on his luck, his pet (bird) become chicken.. too many emotional crisis le.. really.. mood hab been really bad.. whenever i learn to take things easy, she will suddenly appear in my life.. and disappear after tat.. leaving mi in despair.. i noe u all will say.. "oh come on, u are not even wif her yet, and u are lidat.. wake up la"
but do u all actually noe how i feel.. u might not be in tis position b4.. u dunno how it feels like.. i hab the feeling tat the whole world hab turn its back on mi.. yes.. i'm in love.. maybe it juz happen too fast.. too sudden.. or maybe i'm really a loser.. i noe how to console ppl yet dunno how to console myself.. i dunno how to scold myself.. WTF.. wad is happening to mi.. luck hab not been good since a few months back.. and it's getting from bad to worse.. worse to worsen.. i'm pessimistic and paranoid.. i juz need some1 to tok to.. some1 to confine into.. janet hab been a great fren.. thanks for all ur advice.. u understand how i'm feeling.. we even hab a bets.. rmb? hmm.. tell ya something.. i'm winning.. ;)

shall stop here le.. meeting edwin.. long time nv see him le.. maybe he busy working i oso busy in camp.. heard he recently sick.. hmm.. take care lo.. alrights.. take care guys.. thanks for listening to a loser craps.. buai buai!!!

hAppy bIrthdAy t0 my sIs..

2005-12-04T02:43:00.000+08:00

listening to: Tong Hua (Guang Liang)

juz reached home.. went ps tis afternoon.. together wif janet and shufa.. today like met alot of ppl.. hmm, firstly is my camp mates, then my ite fren, went on and saw jasmine and xue ting.. haha.. who says in army hab to be botak.. mi is an example.. haha.. around 11 plus lidat, shufa meet his fren at paragon.. janet and mi oso tag along lo.. then saw my primary school fren oso.. lol.. wad a day.. saw so many seldom see de ppl.. hehe..

there i reach home again.. tml got recall mending.. dunno wad is tat oso.. i only noe tat if tml got activation, then i hab to go back liao.. muz report back to camp within 2 hrs.. lol.. sian.. hmm.. wanna celebrate my xmas wif her de.. but then she working.. wan celebrate advance de she oso dun think free lo.. anyway mi oso decided not to contact her after xmas le.. after i gif her the presents.. haha..

update next time ba.. tired sia.. nitez

hAppy bIrthdAy t0 u.. mY bIg sISteR

2005-11-25T22:46:00.000+08:00

listening to: Dao Dai (Jolin Tsai)

hmm.. it's friday again.. haha.. so fast 1 week hab passed.. well.. tats good.. lol.. today very busy lo.. actually i treated ns as a job now le lo.. customer mania, tis is wad i learn in pizza hut.. haha.. to provide excellent serivce.. lol.. today there is a meeting at the auditorium.. dunno wad landscape meeting de lo.. then like so many ppl lo.. i hab 200 visitor pass oso not enough lo.. some more they all like to come 1 shot lo.. u come 1 shot still nvm lo.. at least wait la, i only hab a pair of hands lo, can't expect mi to do all at the same time right.. some of them are even late, and rush mi.. pls.. no warning no nothing.. suddenly crowd.. even my books pages are not enough lo.. can't u kindly wait.. if u are late, u blame mi.. y dun u come early next time.. be more punctual.. will u? and stop blaming us for being slow.. y not u do and i see how u do.. lets see if u can do it better than mi..

yesterday was a terrible day.. a bad day.. as if yesterday was my uncle visit.. wahahaha.. no la.. juz mood swing lo.. very bad mood.. then quarrel wif jun jie over in the internet.. in MSN.. juz small matters lo.. haha.. feel bad leh.. hais.. oso dunno y lidat leh.. hais.. see how lo.. walk 1 step then see 1 step lo.. tml maybe going to my grandma hse ba.. hehe.. then maybe at night then meet shufa.. go town.. weekly routine.. sianz.. christmas coming..

shall blog tml ba.. bye bye bye bye..

FInally frEe

2005-11-23T21:08:00.000+08:00

listening to: Shan Hu Hai (Jay Chou)

hmm.. finally free.. 1 week plus nv update le, u guys wait til neck long long liao right.. haha.. my 2nd week in camp turn out fine.. it's juz tat i got a test next tue.. alot of speculation is spreading.. mi to be the future IC.. as i'm the only new RP there.. so when the seniors are leaving, then they will hand it over to mi ba.. anyway, my time there are slack lo.. gets to rest and slp everyday.. but still got busy de time lo.. like in the morning when contractors are booking in to work, so i hab to change pass for them lo, then evening is when they are leaving camp for home lo.. i get to rest in the afternoon.. so tat time can pass faster.. already wed liao.. tml is thurs and tat means weekend is reaching.. hahaha..

dunno y my mood very sian lo, really damn sian.. i oso dunno how to explain.. juz tat mood wasn't there ba.. everyday hab to wake up 6 in the morning, then at night gets tired easily so hab to slp around 11.. haha.. so nan de of mi.. wanted to blog so badly but oso dunno wad to blog cos everyday is like the same routine.. i'm still looking for my special 1.. christmas is coming,.. check out the Xmas lightings in town.. tats all for now ba.. take care guys.. will update again soon..

BRYAN, YOU CAN DO IT..

2005-11-14T20:08:00.000+08:00

listening to: Dao Dai (Jolin Tsai)

juz finish bathing and hab my dinner.. went back to SAFTI to collect my things before i go home.. waste of time.. today was my 1st day posted to new unit at KEAT HONG CAMP.. as a RP.. i'm now understudy there.. learning to do deskwork.. u guys dun think it's easy ok.. cos it's difficult.. anyway i sneeze throughout the whole day.. was feeling damn cold and maybe due to insufficient sleep.. going to fall sick soon, i guess.. hais.. the camp include mi only hab 5 RP.. and 4 of them are going to clear their leave after christmas and after tat, they can say bye bye to SAF.. which means i'm going to be the lao jiao there in a few months time.. then they tell mi i hab to learn things fsat cos maybe i'm going to take over as IC.. hais.. sounds so pressure.. some more being a RP need to pass IPPT.. but i fail leh so hack care lo.. the time spent there really very slow.. i from morning sit til 6 plus.. wait for ppl take over mi.. haha.. it's a stay in camp.. but got nights off everyday.. 2330 muz book in.. then friday evening then book out, sunday night 2330 book in again.. sounds so boring.. i'm too tired to blog le.. gonna zzz soon.. bye

weEkend agAin!!!! YipeE..

2005-11-11T12:32:00.000+08:00

listening to: wo zhen de yi wei (zhang dong liang)

hmm.. nothing to do now.. yesterday i went back to my unit le.. meet up wif wei hong juz below my block de bus stop as he is juz living opp my block.. we took the bus togtether lo.. upon reaching, saw some of them and they say tat i'm finally back.. wahaha.. no doubt today i mc again.. hey hey hey.. not i ask for it wan huh.. is the camp MO give mi de.. plus 60 days excuse of boots and lower limb activities.. haha..

around evening lidat met up wif allan go watch movie.. we watched Tom-Yum-Goong.. hmm.. it's of cos a action movie.. quite not bad lo.. although it's NC16 due to some violent scence.. quite exciting la.. very ke lian lo.. those ppl who fight wif him inside the show.. sure hab something break de.. arm, hand and leg.. he can twist and whack til those parts break.. wahahaha.. then mi went home le lo.. hehe.. then meet wif edwin again to arena country club play pool then go eat supper then go home liao lo.. hehe.. later going to orchard i guess.. edwin off day again.. lol.. go town c chai!!! lalalalalalala..

i ask her out tml for a movie.. but dunno wad her answer will be.. hmm.. i oso dunno wad show to watch.. she's going clubbing tonite wif her frenz.. wahahaha.. so dun think she will msg mi today ba.. then mi oso dun disturb her for today.. lol.. now still waiting for edwin to wake up.. lol.. think he still sleeping.. wahahaha.. k la.. shall stop here liao.. wan go bath 1st le.. 881 =D

@@@MC finishing soon@@@

2005-11-09T00:04:00.000+08:00

listening to: ye qu (Jay Chou)

thursday and i'll be back to my unit.. been missing from camp for almost 2 months liao.. go back sure jia lat de.. hmm.. how should i describe my mood.. erm.. excited cum sianz.. lol.. dun feel like going back but i think it's time to go back oso.. lol.. having 2 feelings.. haha.. so weird of mi.. there's tis song so so nice + meaningful.. from chen hao ming.. the name is ai hai tao tao.. take a look at the lyrics below..

试着去努力鼓起勇气放弃你,
总是不争气没有这么快学会安静,
就连眼泪时刻在提醒根本无法放得下你,
漆黑的夜晚还是找到了我排山倒海来袭,
一定是我不够好所以你才想要逃,
逃到天涯和海角躲在别人的怀抱,
你能不能不管过得好不好,
不要故意躲开不让我知道,
只要你过得很好什么都已不重要,
我不会故意打扰更不会让你烦恼,
我每一夜不管你知不知道,
傻傻流着眼泪默默的祈祷,
希望你过得好.

hehe.. really very touching song.. mood not bad today and recently.. lol.. lalalalalala.. wahahaha.. she called mi last night.. out of the blue, once in a blue moon.. then we chatted lo.. til 2.45am lidat.. haha.. then ask her go slp liao.. she still hab to work ma.. then we today oso got msg.. lalalalalal.. tml meeting boon and jun jie for breakfast at lot 1.. guess wad time we meeting.. it's 8.30!!! so early.. haha.. bo bian, cos jun jie got to work at 11am.. so juz jiang jiu yi dian lo.. hahahaha.. hab to wake up around 7.30 tml.. lol.. shall stop here.. bye bye.. muAcks..

+++m0nday bluEs+++

2005-11-08T00:48:00.000+08:00

listening to: rang wo ai ni (vic zhou and xu xi yuan)

finally today is the day i took out my cast liao.. lol.. so happy.. no more different shoes liao.. but tat oso means tat i hab to go back camp soon.. thursday and i'll be back to my unit.. when they took out my cast, my leg was so smelly.. smell le cfm will faint.. haha.. then hor.. they use a sort of razer to open my cast.. then the 1 who do it is not the experienced de.. ask a trainee do for mi.. i was so stress.. i gave the can u do it de face.. wahahaha..

so tat means i still can enjoy for another 2 days.. hehe.. went to play pool today.. after tat play bowling.. leg juz recover i oso dun care liao.. lol.. finally can wear bowling shoes liao.. haha.. then went to jurong point wif jun jie.. play arcade and settle our dinner there.. then night meet kelly and geok cheng.. wahahaha.. my sec sch fren.. tok cock at coffee bean.. edwin call mi, then mi back to pioneer mall meet up wif him liao.. he eat his dinner ma.. so late hor.. but bo bian, he got to work.. no time to eat..

hais.. mi wanna go watch tv liao.. tml then update ba.. tata..

.....i trUly misS u.....

2005-11-07T02:53:00.000+08:00

listening to: dao dai (jolin tsai)

wanted to blog yesterday.. but dunno y cannot publish blog.. sian manz.. make mi type so much liao then cannot publish.. waste my time leh.. then now dunno wad to blog liao.. wahahahaha.. cos wanna save draft oso cannot.. wad is wrong wif blogger..

my MC finish liao.. later hab to wake up early in the morning to go NUH to take out my cast liao.. so happy.. no more wearing of different shoes.. finally can wash my leg liao.. hahahaha.. mi got 3 months nv wash my left feet le.. hmm.. so smelly.. yucks..

hmm.. mi decided to study after i ORD liao.. i wanna study shatec.. F n B.. i think tis is the only thing tat i am interested.. hehe.. wanna study hard liao.. no longer young.. it's time to plan for the future.. hehe.. i miss u.. hahaha.. mi wan to slp liao cos hab to wake up early later..

hArd lifE...

2005-11-05T02:08:00.000+08:00

listening to: yuan dian (5566)

juz reach home after eating supper wif shufa, edwin and 1 of shufa's fren.. hmm.. so full.. shouldn't hab eat cos i was not even hungry in the 1st place.. dunno y i eat oso too.. sometimes i really wonder wad are the things i wan in life.. things dun go well, mixed up.. arghz.. complicated la.. lol.. i shan list it out.. hahahaha..

anyway tis few days are juz like any other day lo.. anyway my MC oso going to finish soon liao.. whatever lo.. hahaha.. didn't hab anything to blog.. but i juz wan to blog la.. haha.. thinking of something to update.. hmm.. let mi think.. erm.. eh.. nothing in particular oso.. o0ps..

hmm.. maybe i shouldn't fall in love so fast? 1 of my fren say tat she's not the type for mi.. and i think.. maybe tats true.. her looks seems like her guy need to hab transport.. hmm.. too bad.. i dun hab.. i'm not like those ah xia kia.. some RICH DUMB ASS.. recently abit moody lo.. unhappy cum bad mood.. anytime oso will volcano erupt liao.. did something terrible last night.. i smoked.. hmm.. i noe it's wrong but i juz couldn't help.. dun worry, where got so easy addicted de.. hais.. sianz.. maybe u all can gif mi some comments? let mi noe if i should continue or gif up.. thanks.. i'm really stressed up.. juz tagged mi.. thanks..

[++<<<< bryAn>>>>++]

2005-10-31T14:23:00.000+08:00

listening to: wo zhen de yi wei (zhang dong liang)

hmm.. wonder how should i start my blog entry for the day.. let mi think.. didn't happen anything interesting lo.. i only noe i had a fucked up weekend.. and it's damn fucked up lo.. yesterday morning went to NUH to visit jason wif jun jie.. cos jason down wif high fever, i think suspected of dengue lo.. but ok liao lo, it's juz a normal fever.. hmm.. after tat which i went home bath liao then went out again.. wif shufa, nth to do ma so we went RC play pool again.. wasn't on good form so went off early.. proceed to lot 1 de mac and settled our dinner there.. then i went home liao..

mi almost strike 4-D last night.. damn it.. i bought 6424, it opened 6426.. arghzz.. sian 1/2 lo.. hais.. luck wasn't on my side but i believe luck is coming.. hahahaha.. so sianz sia.. later maybe going out wif edwin, shufa and 1 fren of theirs ba.. maybe go eat dinner lo..

hais.. loving some1 is hard, caring for some1 is harder, waiting for some1 is hard hard plus hard.. hais.. dun wanna tok abt it liao.. wan goo rot liao.. lol.. hais.. cya..

wAd a b0ring sAt!!!

2005-10-29T22:40:00.000+08:00

listening to: ai hai tao tao (chen hao ming)

juz watch finish a show in SCV starring andy lau.. hehe.. no need to say.. i'm at home and wad a sat to stay at home.. my mum are in india.. cos my big sis is on a business trip wif her husband.. so invite both mums there to holiday.. hahahaha.. went to RC to play billiard wif my fren.. after tat we go mac, sat down and tok cock til 6 plus then play billiard again til 7 plus going to 8.. so sian ar..

bought herbal tea and panadol for her cos she having slight fever and sore throat ma.. anyway, wanted to wait for her to finish work de.. cos so late liao ma.. might as well wait til she close the shop.. actually the things early can gif liao but then she too busy entertaining customer liao ma.. so dun disturb her lo.. juz wait at the fountain lo.. lol.. but hor, she ask mi dun wait for her.. hmm.. later did i noe tat actually is some1 going to fetch her back lo.. not say i angry, jealous or wad la.. but then she can tell mi early de ma.. told mi is her bro fren lai de, who is working near her shop.. hmm.. lan lan to believe lo.. anyway mi yesterday oso nv get to meet her.. tis morning she then reply mi.. claiming tat she 4get to bring back her hp.. hmm.. i believe ar.. cos thur after 9 she nv reply liao.. tats the time her shop close.. some more fri she off.. but wondering she dunno how to go back shop take de meh? haha.. whatever lo.. lol.. seriously.. i really think tat maybe i'm not the type of guy she prefer? no cash, no car, in NS some more.. who can understand mi? hais.. i only noe i hab fallen for her.. drop into the hole and sinking deeper and deeper.. maybe walk 1 step see 1 step lo..

going to bath liao.. feeling so sticky and sweaty.. lol.. arghz.. bath liao then xiang xiang again.. doubt she going to call mi later.. who cares.. hais.. cya guys.. = (

change blog skins again..

2005-10-28T01:14:00.000+08:00

listening to: duan dian

i change my skins again.. hehe.. tis time by myself.. cos the previous couldn't update the new entry thus can't update blog often.. haha.. at 1st my blog looks messy.. thanks to poy for helping mi to adjust the blog.. hehe.. anyway mi oso quite long nv update le.. hehe..

i think i going to fall in love in this ger i knew through Hi5.. got her number last week and it's oso last week tat we begin to sms and chat on phone.. hehe.. i dunno how to describe my feelings but.. falling in love is a wonderful feeling.. it's gif u hopes in life again.. its been months since my last breakup.. anyway.. tis is gonna be a new beginning.. new hope and new life.. hehe.. so all the best to me.. =D

yawnzZ.. feeling tired le.. going to slp soon.. tml her off day.. gonna ask her out for movies?? lol.. good nites..

2005-10-14T18:10:00.001+08:00

back to bl0gging

yoz yoz.. i'm back to blogging and my blog skins hab chg le.. hehe.. nice ma? got my fav colour purple.. but it's not mi who chg de.. my fren mable chg it for mi de.. hehe.. i ask her to chg for mi.. then she say when she got time lo.. lol.. but she chg hao le.. perfect liao.. hehe..then jasmine help mi do the tagboard cos it's missing.. haha.. thanks to mable and jasmine.. =D

last wed was wilson birthday.. we celebrated wif him at cineleisure de K box.. well, he's the birthday boy and he requested for it.. so we all agree.. haha.. we really enjoy ourself and took some great photos to keep for rememberance.. haha.. lol.. really hab fun on tat day.. we bought a t-shirt for him from TOPMAN..

juz came back from town.. meet jj in the morning to eat long john silver.. hoping to see tat ger whom i wan to noe last tue?? think is tue ba.. hehe.. but no fate.. didn't saw her.. lol.. maybe next time ba.. then i received a call from my unit.. saying i hab been reposted to RP.. OMG.. lol.. gonna be a busy man as soon as my MC finishes on 6th of nov.. damn it.. no more easy life.. haha..

there's a coming chalet for those pizza hutrians.. lol.. wad a way to describe.. cos actually is poy birthday coming oso.. then shun bian celebrate together lo.. lol.. hehe.. ganna hab my dinner liao.. shall update next time.. bye bye

0rcHard so maNy chAis!!!!!

2005-10-03T22:47:00.000+08:00

hmm.. so long nv blog le.. 1 week liao lo.. last mon juz went nuh for review on my fractured foot.. after tat i can walk liao.. although sort of limping.. last mon after nuh i reached home i went to slp le cos tired.. the night b4 ton mahjong.. die liao.. got short term memory le.. forget wad happen last week le.. i only rmb ah tan keep staying over at my hse.. we play san guo.. romance of the 3 kingdom 10.. he brought his laptop along to my hse.. hehe.. so fun.. played the whole day i suppose.. even dinner oso nv eat, end up midnite hab to go pioneer mall de 7-11 eat maggi mee.. so ke lian lo.. =D after tat continue again..

then sat mi evening time lidat meet shufa at P.S.. had our dinner at long john sliver.. think shufa oso hurt his leg liao.. both of us were limping.. lol.. we went on to starbucks to rot while waiting for melvin to come.. he late for 2 hrs sia.. actually we agree to meet at 6.30 de.. end up he 8.40 then reached.. haha.. then we rot at starbucks til 11 plus.. melvin going for his fren birthday party so he left early then edwin joined us.. we couldn't go anywhere cos shufa leg suddenly very pain, then he left early liao.. mi and edwin go play pool le then proceed home le.. today morning mi and jun jie went orchard walk walk.. hehe.. went to eat t cine de japanese fast food then play pool le go sing K box.. some more i apply the member.. tat means i got the card le.. lol.. so happy.. lalalalalalalala.. hehe.. i wan the card very long le but now then apply.. hehe.. now nothing to do le.. wanna go play game le.. buai buai..

heez... MC for 6 weeks..

2005-09-26T23:47:00.000+08:00

s0 tirEd.. last nite had a mahjong session at my hse.. wif jun jie, jason and wilson.. haha.. cos today morning wilson and jun jie acc mi go nuh ma.. to take out my cast.. last nite win 5 dollar nia.. not bad liao cos actually lose 10 plus de then the last round i keep winning then recoup my losses and win some back.. lol.. so lucky.. now so tired.. afternoon slp awhile nia.. my cast take out le.. but haven recover yet.. another 6 weeks MC.. lol.. dunno should i happy or not.. hehe.. 6 weeks then go back c the specialist again..

shall stop here le.. cos mi wan go slp liao.. hehe.. wan an

haha.. changed my blog skins!!!

2005-09-23T23:54:00.000+08:00

hehe.. juz changed my blog de skins.. i noe not nice, still looking for a better 1.. lol.. mi spent 1 hr then complete wor.. slow right.. mi dunno how to do ma..all thanks to jasmine(tua tao) and may.. xie xie.. jasmine teach mi abt the songs.. how to put a audio inside ur blog and friendster.. hehe.. now i noe liao, hopefully wun forget it lo.. haha.. deAr pPl, leave ur comments okay.. hehe.. thanks..

today (23th sePt) is j0anNe birthday.. though she's no longer wif us.. i believe those who are close to her, she will always be in our heart.. right? haPpy biRthday t0 u.. quite sad lo.. hais.. stop talk the unhappiness thing liao.. juz now sherlyn msn mi.. as a fren, ask abt my leg lo cos i heard she say pizza hut ppl told her de.. at 1st dunno wan to reply ant de.. but in the end i chose to reply cos i think even if our r/s is over, we stil can be fren de right? doesn't hab much feeling for her liao.. rest assure guys.. right now, my leg more important.. lol.. mon going hospital liao, for specialist appointment.. at the same time, take down the caster.. yeah!!! so happy.. finally can walk liao.. hehe.. k la.. stop le.. mi wanna go play game liao.. bye bye..

i went out today!!!!

2005-09-21T20:20:00.000+08:00

today afternoon i went to jurong point.. haha.. lol.. i went with jun jie.. cos he wanna buy cd rewritable.. ask mi along.. he took cab to my hse there fetch mi go jp together.. when reach there, the ppl look as if i'm a freak.. lol.. no la.. they juz c wad happen to mi nia.. then we take lift go lvl 3 eat kopitiam.. he bought for mi xiao wan mian.. then he himself eat western food.. after tat we go play arcade.. now, who says mi can't play racing game? haha.. i did play.. lol.. no difficulty at all.. cos all the while using right leg to accerlerate and braking.. haha.. 3 plus lidat he say go my hse relax 1st lo.. then walk past pizza hut, uncle ong was the 1st to c mi, then he laugh.. haiyo, wad happen to u?? lol.. then faridah and anna come oso.. all look so shock.. lol.. then mi saw the 2 kitchen aunties inside.. so went in lo.. got around 3 months nv go pizza hut liao.. chatted wif them for awhile.. anna wan to sign on my cast despite derek the area manager was around.. haha.. thanks anna.. then aunties wan mi to visit them more often cos they say they miss mi.. haha.. lol.. then take cab home liao lo..
juz bath hao cos juz now mi sleeping.. hehe.. gonna play warcraft liao.. tata.. tc wor guys..

sianz

2005-09-21T01:03:00.000+08:00

didn't happen anything much today.. stay at home nv go out where got interesting thing.. hais.. gonna die of boredom soon liao la.. but hor, tell u something.. yesterday ceyi come visit mi.. wei ting oso say wan to come de, but then nv.. lol.. busy studying.. then ceyi and mi play lan game, play warcraft 3.. haha.. both of us against the computer.. hahahahaha.. bully them.. then around 7 lidat he go liao cos he meeting his gerfren.. lol.. then today jun jie, ah yong, jason and his gf annd come visit mi.. so gan dong sia.. i think tml no more le ba.. haha.. very sian ar.. nth to do.. save mi pls.. hais.. only watch tv online.. everyday same routine.. haha.. lol.. tml then update ba..

craps craps craps

2005-09-19T13:44:00.000+08:00

mood hab been real bad for me.. maybe it's called emotion? i always hide my feelings inside my heart.. didn't type it out.. partly is i lazy plus i wouldn't wan somebody else to c this and spoil their day, u guys can get wad i mean? but right now, i'm gonna start how i realy feel inside my heart, all.. and i mean all.. not missing a single part.. tis world is selfish, if i'm gonna hide my feelings to avoid unhappiness then it's mi who is suffering..

hais.. start wif my family ba.. my dad hab been blaming mi for whatever thing i hab did.. from the accident in may til now.. i admit i ran to some1 car backside is indeed my fault in singapore law, but how could he pull hand brake suddenly without any warning.. although i was out of love before tat few days but hey, i wasn't dreaming okay.. i dun wan tis to happen too.. there goes my free licence.. when my father knew, he blame mi.. insist tat it's my fault.. shouldn't he like some how care for mi? i'm his son afterall.. even though he did not quite fulfil his job as a father.. i stil respect him cos he's my dad.. then last week, my feet got stuck below the wheel of a cargo trailer.. it's big and heavy.. and my feet was swollen like a pig trotter.. went hospital c and doc told mi he cannot cfm tat i got fracture even after 2 times of x ray.. my dad blame mi, saying i wasn't paying attention to the doc for the 2nd x ray.. say he 1st time cannot cfm then take 2nd time de ma.. he's a doc, how can he dunno.. right.. i was scolded again.. this time he wan mi go chinese doc instead.. some parts of my feet hurts alot, then they say they suspected bone crack, ask mi go hospital c again.. then yesterday mi go back nuh c again.. the doc saw mi and rmb mi.. ask mi how am i, feet got better ant.. after tat he arrange mi for another x ray, tis time he say he saw my leg crack liao.. need to be casted.. need crutches too.. then i got a 9 days mc.. juz now, he come back liao, ask mi cast again.. then i explain to him lo.. cos he ask mi y the 1st time x ray nv shows there is a crack.. after tat he nv say anything le.. maybe he guility? nahzz..

4 months hab passed liao, 4 months i hab been single and she hab been attached for 3 months le.. time realy flies.. blink and its sept liao.. frankly speaking, i stil hab not forgotten her.. but i'm stil trying my best, the memories keep flashing back to my head.. but seeing u 2 are so happily together, i'm really very happy.. i wonder how long would i need to forget.. a 3 months relationship i took 3 weeks to put down.. how abt a 1 yr 2 months relationship.. how long would i need?? tis few months, i noe some of u are trying real hard to acc mi and let mi forget.. xie xie.. u all even scold mi not to think anymore le.. realy appreciate those things u all do.. frens are really important in life cos they are the 1 who is supporting u when u fall down.. and u muz get up urself too.. cannot becos fall down makes u lost interest.. i'm really glad to hab found u u u u u u.. xie xie..

bad things starting to happen 1 after another after my accident in may.. hais.. y so sway de.. even play mahjong oso lose money.. arghzz.. wad is happening to mi.. after leg fracture, wad is the next thing tat is going to happen? shall stop liao.. think i write too much le, but i feel better..

bone fracture

2005-09-19T02:40:00.001+08:00

already 2.41am le.. and i'm still not sleeping.. going to slp soon le ba.. hais.. mi got another 9 days mc due to bone fracture.. sianz.. hab to stay at home.. bo bian hab to go nuh today.. mood sucks manz.. so many thing happen.. arghzz.. i dunno how much longer can i hold on.. ceyi and weiting might visit mi tml ba.. so nice of them.. thanks..

bone fracture

2005-09-19T02:40:00.000+08:00

hais~~~

2005-09-16T01:30:00.000+08:00

hais.. my leg is getting worse le.. suspected of bone crack.. although the doctor in nuh really told mi tat hopefully there is no bone crack.. nobody seems to believe mi.. hais.. ya, i took the x-ray 2 times.. there's no way he can't cfm wif mi.. but who noes, he's the doctor.. can't doubt him anyway.. my father dun believe and scold mi say i wasn't paying attention to him.. too him, everything seems to be my fault.. the accident i got and tis incident and all the blames are on mi.. hais.. sianz.. then juz now went to c chinese doctor at redhill.. say y i come so late then say they think i got a slight bone crack in front.. muz rest b4 the crack gets bigger.. hais.. so many advice and who to believe.. can any1 help mi..

told mi to get lots of rest.. hey.. i'm a nsf lo.. can't gif myself off anytime.. doc oso cannot 1 shot gif months of mc.. chinese doctor mc, my camp dun accept.. wad can i do.. and wad should i do.. it's like my sis told mi, if my leg dun get treated correctly, i wun be able to exercise so vigourly le.. hais.. wad should i do?? help!!! they push my leh.. arghzz.. painful leh, although after tat feel quite comfortable but the process was terrible lo.. imagine i keep shouting and moving abt.. arghzz.. can't take it manz.. hais.. sian ar!!! sat stil muz go back again, tis time die le, sure will shout le..

y am i so unlucky.. so many problems pop up 1 after another.. hais.. stop torturing mi!! will u?? when will u stop then u will be happy.. do u get all the pleasure by torturing mi?? if the answEr is yes, then i'm speechless.. anyway, to my fren out there, tis is a accident month.. take good care.. cos i today juz noe shufa hand oso injure.. hais.. sucks man.. hopefully my leg will recover and no more problems will pop up at the moment.. good night..

i wanna st0p drInking!!!

2005-09-11T00:36:00.000+08:00

my leg are getting better.. beginning to unswell.. but still got walking difficulty.. yesterday went watch movie wif wilson, qian qi, ah boon, jun jie, rui hao and ah yong.. we watch 'the cave'.. well, overall i would rate the show stil not bad lo.. hehe.. then today nv go out lo.. stay at home watch show all day long.. lol.. sian ar.. k la, nth to blog liao.. bye bye..

hais~~~

2005-09-08T22:10:00.000+08:00

sprained my ankle yesterday.. gosh.. its hurts manz.. think a cargo trailer wheel was on top of my foot.. manage to pull out my feet but stil sprain.. luckily no bone fracture lo.. anyway, went to report sick at camp.. which they refer mi to NUH.. they dun dare to diagnosis my condition cos it realy swell like pig leg lo and the pain hab not subsided since yesterday.. only to feel better after they bandage my leg.. but i stil got difficulty walking.. its like i'm dragging my feet to walk lo.. hais.. poor mi.. so sian.. there goes my weekend lo.. damn manz..

juz now watch tis show on SCV.. channel 55.. those who hab scv, pls watch channel 55 at 9 pm everyday weekdays.. the show is damn nice lo.. should realy go and watch.. hehe.. nothing to do liao.. told to rest at home and rest my legs.. sian ar.. help!!!!!

pay day coming soon.. yipee..

2005-09-06T20:46:00.000+08:00

salary coming le.. dunno should i happy ant.. lol.. but once it come.. it will go very fast.. all thanks to those bills and transports.. and not forgetting the government.. giving 350 to nsf per month.. hais~~ dun say le.. :(

yesterday was my off day.. got relax at home b4 going to orchard wif ah tan and jun jie.. roam ard orchard.. hehe.. then c the taka 11th championship of lion dance.. hehe.. watch finish le then go cine play arcade.. haha.. so much fun there.. like kids lidat.. wanted to watch movie de, but like no interesting movie at the moment.. so nv watch lo.. after tat then go home liao lo.. cos mi hab to wake up early ma.. hais~~ poor mi.. didn't happen anything at camp today.. as usual, got to fall out at 5.30 today.. changed le then go home lo.. so tired.. no energy liao.. shag out soon.. haha.. tml wed le.. fast.. going to weekend soon.. YES!! lalalalalala.. -_-"

gonna hab a rest now liao.. tml will be a better day.. nites to all..

sianz

2005-09-05T13:27:00.000+08:00

juz came back from pioneer mall wif my mum.. went eat breakfast cum lunch wif her.. hehe.. it's been a long time ever since we went out eat together le.. juz tat today special.. she off i oso off.. hehe.. so here i am now, blogging.. blog blog and blog.. life is sure getting much more boring as time passes.. actually now waiting for ah tan call.. then can go out liao.. lol.. nth to blog le.. hehehehehehehe..

juz chiong finish

2005-09-04T03:07:00.000+08:00

juz reached home not long.. went to orchard wif shufa juz now.. meet him ard 6+ lo.. then we hab our dinner at cine de food court.. afterwards proceed to out training ground liao.. park lane de pool center.. haha.. we played for 3 hrs ar.. wa lau.. damn long lo.. play til eyes blur liao.. haha.. anyway shufa was not in form today.. keep losing.. when we abt to go home, xing ling sms shufa wanna meet ant.. in the end we meet them at a pub inside ngee ann poly.. i didn't noe a poly oso got pub lo.. the name is halo bar.. lol.. drnak beer there.. we all hab quite alot of beer.. now abit high.. haha..

tml celebrating jason birthday liao.. think at there oso got drink lo.. tis time cfm drank liao.. haha.. shiok sia cos i mon off.. haha.. mi wanna go bath liao.. morning stil hab to wake up early for training lion dancing.. cya guys.. good nite to all of u.. hab a enjoyable saturday.. nitez!!

2005-09-03T14:51:00.000+08:00

yawnZz.. woke up ard 12 lidat.. abit nua.. anyway later mi meeting shufa at orchard le.. it's like a routine, every saturday orchard walk walk play pool.. haha.. shufa got dream wan to be a professional pool player ma.. ask mi join in.. lol.. but i noe la, my skill not good.. but can be learn de lo.. can improve de ma.. right.. muz be optimistic.. haha.. life is so boring.. everyday the same thing happen.. can't there be anything else more interesting? go camp return camp is wad i do everyday.. i think i got very long nv go jurong point liao lo.. like totally no time lidat.. so near mi yet i nv go.. hais.. lazy la.. sian la.. frankly speaking tis few weeks my mood not very good lo.. which i oso dunno y.. there's is a feeling which i dunno how to describe.. so many months hab passed le.. yet i'm stil not recovered.. y muz there be things tat will remind mi of her.. y is tis so.. is it tat hard? anyway, i already xia ding jue xin, to forget and nv to remember..

juz now watch 2002.. starring nicholas tse and feng de lun de.. nice show actually.. got 1 part i actually drop my tears.. it's been how long tat i nv drop tears liao.. but nvm.. it's okay.. sooner or later.. i'll be back as the old bryan.. where are all my frens? when u are sad, i'm there, when u need help, i'm there too.. when u need a shoulder, mine is juz right beside u.. but.. when i needed all this, where are all of u? as long as u all are happy can liao.. i dun expect much.. heaven sent mi down to help people.. so got anything de hua can call mi lo..

sunday again..

2005-08-28T17:20:00.000+08:00

it's sunday again.. gonna hab monday blue tml again.. doesn't feel like returning to camp.. bored is wad i can say.. a waste of time.. let mi flash back wad happen last week.. anyway i was v-com again on thursday.. frm 1600 to 2300.. oh my god.. there's a dinner for CAPT & above.. we are suppose to fetch them frm their bunk to the warriors hall where they are going to hab their dinner.. wow.. imagine we are fetching LTC and full colonel.. i even saw a brigade general (BG) at the dinner.. oh gosh.. so stress.. like F n B line lidat.. muz gif excellent service to them.. haha.. luckily i got experience.. used to work in pizza hut ma.. all kinds of customers i hab deal with b4.. anyway their dinner 10+ then end then fetch them back lo.. after tat we went back to my company liao.. slept ard 1+.. but dunno y cannot slp.. i sleep in the rest room ma.. so morning wake up de shi hou fang bian ma.. then hais~~.. my sergnant snore like pig lo.. haiyo.. sian liao lo.. anyway i oso like coughing the whole nite.. so nv realy slp well lo.. no duty rest is becos mdm cancel it becos of safti 10th anniversary.. half day.. i was like so shag, no duty rest stil hab to participate in a game call heritage.. like walk ard only lo.. got checkpoint all this la.. imagine a hot day, we walk frm my unit to pasir laba unit.. shit man.. damn tired.. only ard 10.20 lidat, my fren call mi say i got v-com again at 11am.. i was sweaty, no time to bath stil hab to rush back to my company.. plan duty for mi nvm leh.. but hor, maybe at least u all can bloody inform mi before hand? muz it be a last min? detail sheet doesn't plan last min de.. u understand wad i mean? and to the person who plan it.. u plan mi thur nite liao, fri no duty rest stil plan mi? am i the only living person in the company? got so many ppl yet u chose mi.. wad is tis.. gosh.. starting to hate the life there le.. making mi so sick of there.. no brain ppl managing the company.. wad the hell.. some more it's a detail frm 1100 to 2359.. whole of safti half day yet i hab to do duty.. hais~~~~~.. wad a friday to spent lidat..

here comes saturday.. YEAH!! cheers.. favourite day of the week.. went out to orchard wif shufa.. he wanted to buy things ma.. shopping for him.. well, he bought a bag, a sling bag.. looks cool manz.. lol.. dunno y suddenly he say he wan to be a professional pool player.. haha.. went to play pool abt the whole day ar.. siao rite.. we even agree on every sat go play pool lo.. haha.. i oso crazy wif him.. haha.. edwin oso got join us.. after he work ard 10+ liao lo.. he reached ard 11+.. went to PS de mac talk cock til like 2+ then go home.. slept til 9 wake up then go find jun jie liao.. every sun our outing at shi guan.. lol.. juz reached home not long.. so tired.. jason birthday reaching le.. anyway.. advanced happy birthday to u.. okay.. wanna go bath le.. will update if i got the time again.. hehe.. hopefully wed ba.. got tis week very busy.. take care to all my frens out there.. got anything de hua juz gif mi a call lo.. bye!!!

...hightlights...

2005-08-23T23:54:00.000+08:00

so long nv update le.. basically is lazy lo.. haha.. lol.. nothing interesting to blog leh.. haha.. last entry was last mon.. jason birthday coming soon le.. next tue.. wonder how are they going to celebrate wif him.. anyway mi start a saving plan le.. dunno wad policy lo.. anybody wanna save $$.. let mi noe okay.. cos my sis is doing this oso.. but my contract is not under hers.. is under my another fren.. dun worry, my sis can be trusted de.. lol.. anyway, mi stil in ns ma.. can only save $40 per month.. i'm saving for 25 yrs.. when tat time come, i'm already 45 yrs liao lo.. but at least i can withdraw $20k.. the interest is quite high lo.. the highest they can gif is 4.2%.. whereby POSB interest only 0.125%.. so damn little lo.. at least when i 45 yrs old, there will be a gurantee of $20k.. haha.. anyway, i hab decided when i started working wif a stable income, i will open another a/c lo.. tis time might save a few hundred dollar per month.. so tat maybe i can retired early leh.. or maybe all those $$ for my future children.. hehe.. or i might use the $$ to start a business of my own.. hehe.. family business for my son to take over.. oh shit.. think too far le.. lol.. but i'm glad tat i start a saving plan liao lo.. recently weather not good lo.. hope all of my frenz take care okay.. dun fall sick.. mi already got sore throat, flu and headache liao.. better take care lo.. okay.. got any interesting stuff then update again hao le.. wan to zzz liao.. nites my frens..

2005-08-15T22:22:00.000+08:00

dAmn angry now.. juz went down to buy a pack of cigarette for my father.. the shop was abt to close.. so i politely ask the uncle if he could sell mi a pack.. he demanded for my ic.. ohh wad the f***.. i tot only below my block ma, bring ic for wad.. so i tel him la (stil in a polite manner).. i nv bring leh, but i'm 19.. i say it's for my father.. he stil got the cheeks to ask.. where is ur father then.. looking out.. pls lo, if my father got come wif mi, wad for i buy? i might as well ask my father buy instead.. use ur bloody brain la.. assh0le.. 2 yrs ago i was 17, as usual went down to buy.. he didn't allow and i understand cos i was stil underage.. but pls lo.. 2 yrs liao leh, i 19 liao lo.. i let u earn $$ u dun wan then forget it lo.. wa.. stil got ppl say i look like 27 yrs old ar.. yet a pack of cigarette i oso cannot buy.. wad the hell.. dAmn u bangala.. say mi racist if u wan.. I AM.. i dun like u.. i dun like ur smell.. i dun like ur character.. in short, I HATE EVERYTHING ABT U.. DAMN U ASSHOLE.. in the end, i juz f*** him b4 i left for pioneer mall de 7-11.. make mi walk..

s0rry guys, so many f***ing.. couldn't help.. i'm still angry.. pissed off by him.. spoilt my mood.. stop tat liao.. today took half day off.. went walk walk jp wif my camp mate.. we went arcade play game, c ger then ate our lunch at kopitiam.. shit.. the duck rice and char siew rice tat we ate sucks manz.. haha.. after tat went home liao.. didn't report for RT juz now.. by right muz go back.. but mi and him nv.. 4.30 they call us.. but we nv pick up.. i already think of the reason liao.. sleeping cannot hear phone ring.. overslept.. sorry.. haha.. but sure stil kanna punish de la.. fed up management.. think will sign extras lo.. who cares.. hais.. no mood to blog liao la.. tired.. going slp soon.. da jia wan an.. ++hugz++

2005-08-14T21:38:00.000+08:00

hmm.. finally free le.. hehe.. so tired.. yawnzZ.. gonna slp soon.. if not tml i can't wake up on time le.. haha.. wad a sunday to spend in camp.. luckilt can claim a 1 day off.. might take 1/2 day off tml.. hehe.. to rest lo.. woke up 4.30 today to prepare.. then my campmate fetch mi to my camp cos he going to help his uncle work anyway.. so it's kinda like shun bian lo.. haha.. thanks buddy.. as usual, as a v-com send those ocs cadets to poyan range for live firing lo.. hais.. always end so late de.. make us wait like hell.. end ard 3 plus ar..

so decided to go jurong point for a walk.. wearing my long 4.. ma chiam i juz chiong sua finish lo.. so damn funny manz.. 8 months hab passed since i enlisted for the army.. time flies.. lol.. old liao old liao.. sian ar.. met up wif wei ting juz now, at jp.. sat at kopitiam on the 3rd floor to talk lo.. chat abt last time.. like so many memories.. so funny.. really very funny.. now everybody oso got their own fren liao.. got fren de acc fren got gf de acc gf.. all no time to catch up old times.. lol.. but i believe friendships nv end.. will they?? suddenly wish i could start from sec 3 life again.. tat was the best part in my life.. temporary la.. no worries.. still young.. go sch, go out play bball like nobody care.. now ar.. changed so much le..

wad am i crapping.. haha.. u all c oso bored rite.. lol.. hao la.. stop my craps.. my eyes shutting down le.. c when then blog again ba.. yawnzzZ.. wan an.. good nite.. tonite very hot, dun cover blankets okay.. haha.. tAke caRe to all my fRenZ

wad a day

2005-08-13T22:30:00.000+08:00

juz reach home.. back from my grandma place.. tonite gonna slp early cos of duty early in the morning.. imagine 5.30 muz report camp on a sunday for duty which last til afternoon.. sorry shufa and xingling tat i can't join u all to play pool.. lol.. perhaps next week ba.. now waiting to watch tv show and soccer match.. yeah.. EPL is back into actions.. haha.. watch how man u will dominate the league tis season manz.. haha.. i got the feeling.. haha.. they will buy michael owen de.. hehe.. i'm talking as if i'm the manager.. haha.. haven start yet so here i am now blogging.. haha.. so slow de the show.. keep mi waiting..

last nite went cck to find my fren.. jun jie say wan go la kopi.. end up at ah boon place play game.. haha.. PS2.. 4 players link wor.. cos of the multi tag ma.. then say tis morning wan go play tennis de, end up jun jie cannot wake up.. haha.. so agree on going fot lunch b4 he go work.. end up oso last min cancel cos he hab to go early collect some stocks.. dun worry, boon and mi understand.. haha.. then mi and boon go 302 makan lo.. eat mixed vege rice.. damn ex manz.. 2 person eat $9+ leh.. shit manz.. then go lot 1 de arcade play play le.. haha.. long time nv enjoy le.. on the way to lot1.. we were approached by 2 gers.. survey de thingie la.. 2 of them approach mi, ask mi help them fill up.. then ah boon best lo.. leave mi alone there say wan go inside wait for mi.. haha.. end up, 1 of them approach him.. then he's like diaoz.. anyway the survey is like saving plan de la.. quite good lo.. maybe i will wan ba.. not much but at least a saving.. cos i wanna be you yong de ren.. some1 wif future.. wif savings.. hehe.. might consider.. haha.. k la.. my show start le.. gonna watch le.. enjoy urself everybody.. today is sat.. haha.. take care.. tata..

sianz

2005-08-12T19:56:00.000+08:00

juz bath hao le.. smile nice nice le.. lol.. today finally can go home le.. lol.. cos wed and thurs i was inside the camp.. on duty.. then too late to go home le cos no more bus.. haha.. so tired lo.. muz go poyan range wif those ocs cadets.. lol.. last nite reach camp ard 1 plus.. slept at 2 ba.. but heng ar.. got duty rest.. slept til 11 plus then get prepared and went to hab lunch le.. fall in at 1pm.. haha.. so shiok.. anyway.. juz now reached home ard 6 plus la.. think going out soon le.. meet junjie they all.. haha.. so sian.. shall stop here cos nothing to blog le..

2005-08-08T00:33:00.000+08:00

nice pic leh.. i take de wor.. lol.. last week.. 31/7/05.. i got so long nv update my blog le ar.. lol.. 1 week plus le.. miss my blog?? haha.. guess not.. bo xin de u all.. nv tag mi.. haha.. anyway tis week oso nv happen any happening stuff.. today juz went out wif jun jie.. ask mi go find him, cos he work til 2 nia ma.. then i ask boon along oso.. go lucky plaza eat chicken rice then go play pool liao.. lol.. play til 5 plus ba.. then go play the real puncher machine.. almost sprain my hand.. stupid de mi.. clusmy.. ben shou ben jiao.. haha.. then walk around then went to cck le.. go play basketball.. so long nv play liao lo.. play awhile then breathless liao.. maybe i old liao lo..should retired liao.. on sat nite then i noe tat my big sis is safe.. cos she dunno at which country which is flooded.. then we oso got no news of her.. my jie fu mum and my mum damn kan cheong.. even i oso kan cheong.. luckily she called last nite bao ping an.. then sun morning reach sg le.. glad to hear tat.. realy glad.. dunno wad to blog le.. hehe.. cos i very tired le.. haha.. if free tml then i blog lo.. take care guys.. nite and muackz.. -_-"

2005-07-30T15:19:00.000+08:00

so tired ar.. hehe.. slept around 7 tis morning.. cos went to finz.. lol.. tat was fun though but tired.. i reach there ard 12 plus.. ken was there already.. he asked mi down last nite cos he xin qing bu hao.. becos of some working problems lo.. then he ask mi go down acc him.. i reach there then he stil got half a bottle of chivas left.. belle was there but not working.. lol.. went down there becos she waiting for amelia.. haha.. she was sick yesterday.. she cannot drink liquor only can drink warm water.. keep suaning her.. haha..

then somemore yesterday play pool like so pro.. win ppl 5 ball la etc.. lol.. but still got lose de shi hou la.. haha.. 3 plus then ken open another martell cos no more chivas le.. he tell mi i should feel honour cos it's the 1st time he open martell.. lol.. then finish ard 1 fifth of the bottle.. left 4/5.. lol.. then 5 plus lidat then go home le.. quite enjoy lo.. later think going out again ba.. hehe.. will keep ya updated..

2005-07-26T18:15:00.000+08:00

tis are the 2 of the pics tat i took on sunday.. lol.. i met up wif my sec sch frenz.. the right side de is dark abit la.. so dun mind lo.. lol.. next week is their competition le.. wish them good luck.. jia you.. haha.. lol.. dunno y huh my face so common.. everytime when met wif new fren.. they sure will say i look like some1 de.. look like him la, look like her la.. do i really look like them? lol.. recently my fren say i look like ruan mian mian.. if i got long hair de hua sure perfect de.. u all noe who ruan mianmian rite.. the 7 pm channel 8 show.. haha.. i look like ger meh.. haha.. then today a new camp mate say i look like a actor.. asked if i got act in tv show b4 ant.. haha.. flattered la.. lol.. mi!! a actor?? lol.. then when i follow a officer go top up oil tank.. another nsf from other camp say i look like his fren.. hais.. ren you xiang si ma.. last time when i work in pizza hut.. oso got ppl say i look like her fren bro.. haha.. lol.. die le.. next time go out, ppl might mistook mi for some1 else.. haha.. lol.. mi wanna go bath le cos juz reach home.. going to pay my bills later on.. maybe got mahjong session oso.. hand itchy le.. lol.. will blog tml okay.. lol.. tc dude..

2005-07-24T21:31:00.000+08:00

juz reached home not long.. lol.. had a busy weekend.. haha.. lol.. so shag too.. actually mi everyday oso shag de la.. haha.. lol.. anyway friday didn't go anywhere lo.. juz stay at home watching tv, play game and surf net lo.. play my game (football manager 2005) til like around 3+ lidat then go slp.. hehe.. cos next day dun hab to wake up early ma.. haha.. lol..

then dunno y sat de morning 8 am.. i automatically wake up le.. i tot i need to fall in then i'm late.. haha.. maybe i'm really used to waking up early liao lo.. then i went to toilet to relieve myself b4 i proceed to my dreamland again.. tis time slept til 11.. lol.. same thing lo.. play game til like 3 plus then go bath.. hehe.. then i go my grandma hse liao.. so long nv go le.. nagging at mi le.. hehe.. so went lo.. reached there around 5 plus.. my uncles are all playing mahjong.. so i was like hand abit itchy too.. but too bad no leg to play leh.. lol.. then meet up wif shufa at town around 9 lidat..

walk walk see see around orchard.. damn.. so many chais.. in case u guys dunno my language.. "chais" means pretty gers.. lol.. it's damn alot lo.. wento to HMV, cine far east plaza and even went to DEVILS bar there outside de 7-11 buy drinks.. lol.. xingling call us say meet at 11.15 at lau pa sat.. hehe.. going to eat 1st then go party world le.. at shenton way de home ktv.. sing til 4.. wa lau.. so tired lo.. reached home around 4.30 lidat.. then slp le.. cos realy too tired le.. then morning 8 wake up go meet junjie they all le.. all my best fren in sec sch til now.. juz tat last time not much time to meet up wif them.. they got lion dance competition next week.. i wish them all the best.. anyway i'll be going too.. to support them.. lol.. after their traing we go play pool until now lo.. so tired ar.. not enough slp.. arghzz.. haha.. anyway i did enjoy myself.. k.. stop my craps.. i wanna go bath then eat le.. so hungry cos haven eat yet.. tc dude..

shag ar...

2005-07-21T23:10:00.000+08:00

so tired.. recently so tired.. oso dunno y.. today reached home around 8.35 lidat.. quite late today cos got duty ma.. lol.. went to SFT.. (SAF ferry terminal) took some officers there for tekong training.. lol.. almost late for their boats.. we brought our dinner to eat.. but then we couldn't find any place to park our 5 tonner then cannot eat.. but we damn hungry lo.. then in the end we park our 5 ton at queensway stadium.. haha.. many passer by c le shock.. they muz be wondering wad the hell is the army ppl doing here.. haha.. anyway we eat finish le then drive back to camp liao lo.. haha.. lol.. traffic was stil okay lo.. not realy very busy la.. hehe.. anyway realy very shag lo.. lol.. then some more eyes very pain.. haha.. going to slp soon le.. tml friday le.. dunno should be happy or sad.. cos i'm broke le.. hab to wait for my pay to come.. lol.. poor mi.. couldn't find job outside to earn extra $$.. anybody got intro ma? hehe.. mi going to zzz le.. cannot tahan le.. hehe.. wan an guys.. take care.. muackz

yaWnz

2005-07-19T23:04:00.000+08:00

so tired.. didn't catch any sleep last night.. recently dunno y keep tossing in bed leh.. juz couldn't fall asleep lo.. anyway last nite went down finz wif ken and ah hao.. tot a mon nite sure not busy de.. i reach there at 1 and tat place is full hse lo.. oh my god.. how could tat be.. lol.. anyway ard 2 plus then begin to less ppl liao lo.. we open chivas last nite.. hais.. not realy drunk lo.. cos nv realy drink much.. lol.. then ken gif mi drink nick.. my god.. so hot.. then abit high le.. lol.. play pool and talk cock til 5 plus then decided to go home.. ard 5.45 then i reached home.. lol.. jadee drunk.. so was belle.. but belle not as drunk as jadee lo.. but can c tat belle very shag le yet couldn't go home as no 1 will be doing closing.. then she's like bo bian lo.. haha.. so ke lian de..

today mood like very bad lidat.. abit of thing i wil either get angry if not i wil fuck the ppl who piss mi off.. oso dunno y.. so ppl, pls dun piss mi off ar.. haha.. tis month bill only $78+.. long time nv so cheap le lo.. maybe it's becos i chg plan de ba.. got 500 free sms.. lol.. so good rite.. but stil muz control lo.. everytime my bill wil be $100++ and above de.. tis month so cheap.. quite happy.. but i muz not be so easily satisfied.. i muz control to make it even lesser.. control my $$ settle my debts b4 i wanna commit myself to another relationship.. which i think most likely wil be next yr liao lo.. lol.. tat's good.. freedom and free time.. haha.. but got good and bad points la.. lol.. tml morning got RT again.. so bo liao de lo.. hais.. last nite nv slp.. now wanna slp liao.. hopefully can fall asleep ba.. wan an guys.. thanks for listening to my craps.. xie xie.. duo xie peng chang.. tc..

2005-07-18T23:19:00.000+08:00

so late le.. stil not sleeping.. oso dunno.. tis few days like loss of sleep lidat.. keep tossing in bed leh.. hais.. oso dunno y.. maybe stil becos of the dream incident? i ask my mum, she say she oso dunno wad is tat suppose to mean.. i ask my sergnant.. he told mi next month the door open le.. (u all should noe wad i refering to rite) maybe she wil come look for mi? manz.. i was shocked manz.. i nv consider tis b4.. wad should i do? should i be scare? i did nothing wrong.. y should i be afraid.. but however.. tis is human nature ba.. i believe.. sianz.. recently like so boring lidat.. realy damn bored lo.. nth to do.. haha.. lol.. later hao xiang going to finz ba.. ken juz call mi ask mi wan to go ma.. i anything de lo.. kieth and zheng zhong wil be going anyway.. and they ask mi along.. lol.. so nice of them.. haha.. stomach not very good recently.. keep got stomachache leh..

damn.. y am i always look like the bad guy.. y am i like the 1 who always make trouble for others.. isit realy mi? fuck care la.. none of my business anymore.. who the fuck care.. i'm the 1 leading my own life.. i need no comments from u.. so juz shut the hell up and lead ur own life.. wo wen xin wu kui.. maybe not enough slp.. kinda out of my mind le.. did things oso extraordinary.. waitin gfor cal to go out le.. tc.. bye.. nitez..

2005-07-17T11:29:00.000+08:00

hab a dream juz now in the morning.. cos i was awaken in the morning by my phone cos got message.. after i c the msg.. i went back to slp.. tat is when the dream started.. i dreamt abt joanne.. i dream tat she came back to life.. i was so happy.. it's like her death is fake.. i dun mean to offend la but tis is how my dream is abt.. from wad i can rmb, she is like my gf inside my dream.. everything seems so real.. when i woke up, it's like everything seems fresh to mi.. only then i realise tat is a dream.. tis 1 yr, tis is the 1st time tat i ever dream of her lo.. is she trying to gif mi some message? is she trying to tell mi something? hais.. not say i still got feeling for her lo.. after all she's my good fren too.. she's the only ger tat we broke off and could stil remain as fren.. tat's unusual to mi.. normally i dun contact my ex le.. seriously if i hab a choice, i would nv my her to die.. i seriously dun wan any of my fren to die.. hais.. the feeling is kinda saddening lo.. i dunno who can i talk to lo.. hais..

okay.. back to my life.. yesterday went to allan hse play ps2.. then around 8 plus reached home le.. meet shufa they all at cs hse.. originally going to eat their dinner then go play pool de then suddenly chg program to K box lo.. lol.. 12 sing til 3.. lol.. so fun and happening.. cs can sing realy well.. wow, it's such a waste tat he did not participated the jue dui superstar.. i'm not kidding.. anyway after tat we go home le.. so kinda boring now.. nothing to do.. maybe juz rot at home ba.. on a sunday.. lol.. tc ba.. lazy to blog le.. ta ta..

2005-07-16T10:46:00.000+08:00

good morning.. here i am again.. lol.. addicted to blogging le.. lol.. oso dunno y.. kinda fun huh.. typing down whatever hab happen in my life.. whether u all are interested ant is up to ur la.. oso can't force u all to read de ma.. haha.. anyway my life is oso not interesting lo.. haha.. yesterday didn't went anywhere lo.. same thing.. camp in the morning.. then yesterday supposely got games day de.. but due to raining then last min cancel.. so can fall out early lo.. but.. hais.. fed up management then went home late.. keep us waiting for nothing lo.. lame.. reached home around 5 plus going to 6.. mum cooked curry fish head for dinner.. yummy.. thanks mum.. lol.. the dinner was marvellous.. later on surf the net and play football manager til 8 plus lidat then go meet penguin le.. jadee fren.. jadee go visit fren at lakeside ma.. then penguin lonely so i go acc her lo.. lol.. we went je de k pool play pool.. hais.. the table and the cue sucks lo.. damn it.. after tat meet up wif jadee before we went down to finz again..

ken oso got go.. he reached ard 10.30 ba.. then he open 1 bottle chivas.. sharing wif keith and zheng zhong.. ken's fren.. i oso noe them la.. lol.. dunno wad to describe there lo.. yesterday was kinda like busy cos it's a friday nite.. queue up to play pool muz at least wait 1 hr lo.. c how packed is the place.. lol.. haha.. at there i won lo.. so u guys dun think is my skills sucks okay.. is je de pool table and cue not good lo.. haha.. excuses.. -_-"

then saw gracey.. she came down wif a fren.. think she drunk le.. cos she say she came down frm another place.. then dunno y she mad liao bite my hand.. haha.. now stil got the blue black lo.. then the skin peel off oso.. haha.. so painful.. lol.. as usual i was drunk.. but not really very drunk lo.. then keith acc mi go outside vomit.. lol.. hate the feeling of vomiting.. sucks man.. anyway, will feel much better lo.. haha.. originally meeting cindy for movie juz now de.. but due to raining and she's got a fever.. so we din go out lo.. meet tml instead.. anyway she realy wanted to watch the movie lo.. lol.. so many craps to talk abt today.. lol.. later meeting allan le.. my sec sch fren.. maybe going to his hse.. haha.. rot ba.. sat ma.. staying at home will be bored.. but b4 going out, i promise my mum tat i will be sweeping the floor 4 her.. so tat when she reach home she can juz go mop the floor lo.. lol.. there is tis comic i hab been waiting.. for months.. cos supposely every month publish de ma.. then dunno y, i think the writer cock up lo.. the story getting more and more interesting le.. wanna wait for the episode 8.. lol.. gonna stop all my craps le.. later u all read til tu lan ar.. haha.. take care guys.. :)

thurs le.. yipee

2005-07-14T18:31:00.000+08:00

so hungry ar.. lol.. juz reached home.. so tired too.. actually got go watch movie de.. but cancel le.. cos she's not feeling well.. lol.. nvm la.. stay at home oso better.. save money lol.. tml friday.. yipee.. so fast weekend le.. so happy.. i miss my sec sch fren.. find 1 day we go out together leh.. hehe.. nothing to blog le leh, but stil wanna blog.. nvm la.. got mood le then write again.. tc guys..

s0 sHag

2005-07-13T17:34:00.000+08:00

back from causeway point le.. today i take leave again!!.. lol.. cos i went to visit joanne.. a fren who hab passed away.. so sad.. hais.. tats life and i hab to gan kai yi dian lo.. anyway.. next week tue is her 1 yr le.. so it's like kinda bad of mi to visit her after 1 yr.. couldn't find the time last yr becos of some problems.. but anyway today got time le.. last nite went down to finz wif ken.. then relax there lo til around 3 plus then ken wanna go home le cos he will be working today ma.. early in the morning.. i was supposed to wake up at 9.. but end up i wake up at 8.25.. then i call ken lo, in case he late for work.. then i fell asleep again.. g0sh.. i woke up at 10 instead.. shit.. i'm meeting cindy at 11.. then i faster rush bath and all tis things.. reach cck at 11.05.. guess wad time she reached? 12 plus.. haha.. lol.. so i was like rotting in lot 1.. chg alot le.. lol..

when she reached le then we go eat long john silver.. then go k pool play pool lo.. we play like so long yet the bills is like only $3.30.. oh my god.. i was so surprised.. after tat went to bishan le.. cos the temple is located ard there lo.. juz beside raffles institute.. some more tat temple i got go b4.. becos of the lion dancing de.. bi shan ting.. lol.. when i saw her photo, my feeling was like.. how time flies.. so fast.. y did she leave us.. it's been more than a yr since i last saw her.. hais.. awhile later then we leave the temple le.. we went junction 8 shopping.. after tat went to causeway point le.. she bought a shirt there.. quite nice wor.. original price was $33.. after discount was $12.. cheap huh.. then she go work, i go home le lo..

tml she off.. ask her out for movies de.. tml nite.. watch the wad show huh, wet dreams 2.. lol.. both of us thinks it look so interesting ma.. so agree on watching together.. then juz now i reached home, got a call from zul.. my camp mate.. saying i got duty tml.. at 4.. dunno end at wad time lo.. it's like.. hais.. sianz.. maybe can't meet her liao lo.. cindy is my good bro cum sistaz.. lol.. we are damn good fren lo.. juz tat we seldom contact only becos i was attached last time.. i juz dun wanna lose a good fren juz becos i'm attached.. hopefully my duty will end early ba.. juz in time to watch the show.. lol.. tats all for today ba.. kinda tired le.. yawnzZ..

h0me sweet h0me

2005-07-11T18:38:00.000+08:00

juz reached home.. h0me sweet h0me.. today in camp do nothing.. didn't really do anything much there.. except for some car washing lo.. it was raining juz now so there wasn't any rt for mi.. yeah!! :) anyway , i went straight home after falling out.. hais.. wad a day.. miss my PS2.. bought some games yesterday.. oh man.. it was fun manz.. i bought fifa street, midnite club 3 and grand theft auto (san andreas) all was playable.. it was a nice game.. only get to play awhile last nite then hab to slp le.. if not today sure not enough slp de.. anyway, i dun care le.. tonite i shall play til morning.. lol.. so exciting de game.. hehe.. oso suddenly feel like having a game of mj.. although recently luck hab not been realy good.. but i believe it's coming back soon.. lol.. juz reached home and i started blogging.. didn't even bath 1st.. lol.. lazy ar.. k la.. mi go do my stuffs le.. free then blog again.. (p.s btw how u all think of my blog?? nice ma??)

sunday again.. damn u

2005-07-10T12:39:00.000+08:00

yawnzZz.. juz wake up not long.. last nite play mj again.. lost 7.40.. lol.. anyway anthony played wif us last nite.. surprised rite.. lol.. tot he would be busy person de.. but he lost 40 cents.. lol.. xingling the most cham de.. lost 18 lidat ba.. haha.. so ke lian.. but anyway after the mj, chee siang hab to go fetch his boss.. so xingling and mi go ahead and find shufa and edwin 1st lo.. at 651 coffee shop.. i ate chicken chop but couldn't finish.. hais.. still couldn't find back my appetite.. my hp line is going to cut away soon.. no money.. 300+ ar.. how to pay.. maybe consider dun wan use hp le.. when ord then say lo.. hais.. c how 1st lo.. got use or not oso same.. no much difference.. think today deadline le.. damn the goverment.. everything charged so expensive.. rise the recruit pay juz becos ur damn minister son juz enlisted.. can't u consider other places as well? transport fee so expensive.. damn u lo.. hais.. forget those damning.. tml hab to go back camp le.. 1 week nv go back.. really dun feel like going back.. sianz de lo.. some more tml got rt and whatever the rsm parade.. fuck u la.. mood is bad.. lol.. wad a sunday to spent at home.. hais~~~~

recover recover recover

2005-07-08T12:06:00.000+08:00

so fast friday le.. sian.. at home so boring.. but at least my temperature drop to 37.3 liao.. lol.. finally drop.. but body ache.. hehe.. so long nv play mj le.. wanting to play leh.. lol.. i'm going to rot to death le.. tis few days, my phone has been damn quiet.. only jadee msg mi asking mi how am i ba.. am i feeling better.. but u all dun xiang y y ar.. cos as a fren she ask lo.. dunno wan to go jp walk walk ant leh.. hais.. at home so sian ar.. going to bored to hell le la.. dunno wad to blog le.. it's the same everyday.. -_-" c how my mood tml ba..

...I'm SoRrY...

2005-07-05T11:35:00.000+08:00

i tot i hab realy got over her.. but tis few days i found out i'm still thinking of her.. i'm sorry.. i noe i shouldn't think of her anymore.. but i juz couldn't cheat myself by telling myself i'm not thinking of her.. the feeling is so hurting.. y does it hab to be mi.. y does it hab to ended up tis way.. so many memories.. wo wang bu liao.. who can help mi.. i'm already not disturbing ur life anymore.. hais.. i'm feeling so helpless and weak.. my temp juz rise to 39.9.. shit.. no appetite some more.. anyway i couldn't slp last nite.. dunno y.. keep got the feeling tat some1 is beside mi talking.. dun wanna let mi slp.. oh my god.. hais.. maybe fever got illusion ba.. but scary lo.. hais.. alone at home.. life for mi suddenly seems so lonely.. seems so empty.. nth much to blog le.. tml will be going back camp le ba.. cya..

sIcK sIcK sIcK

2005-07-04T11:55:00.000+08:00

it's been a few days since i last blog.. i oso dunno when.. lol.. but anyway.. i'm sick.. damn high fever.. the temperature reading is 39.8.. oh my god.. nv been tis high b4.. later i become retarded how.. lol.. touch wood.. haha.. i think the fever started on sat nite.. when i reach home from finz.. b4 i go finz.. i meet up wif shufa.. it's like so long nv c him le lo.. met him at ms.. currently there's is renovation.. so i lost my way.. lol.. later on we went to eat long john silver then rot and talk cock there til like 9 plus lidat b4 he went back to jp to find xingling, chee siang and edwin ba.. so ke lian de mi.. last nite went to NUH.. doc gave mi 3 days mc which wil lasted til tuesday then wed light duty.. hais.. sick nobody take care of mi.. lol.. muz quickly find a gf soon le.. lol.. there are stil some things tat i kept in my mind.. nobody noe.. i noe can le.. lol.. maybe fever too high le.. talk oso blur.. feel so giddy now.. wan to go rest le.. sayonara....

boring

2005-07-02T12:40:00.000+08:00

g00d morning to all.. so fast sat le.. lol.. good la.. can faster pass my ns days can le.. last nite juz had a mj session wif xingling they all at chee siang hse.. i lost 8 dollars.. haha.. nvm la.. so long nv play le.. nv go dring yesterday is becos too shag le.. went utterly drunk on thursday nite.. slept a miserably 2 hrs then wake up le.. who noes wake up le stil giddy giddy lidat.. hais.. til now got a terrible headache.. as usual enjoy there.. haha.. actually oso wun get drunk de.. is the ding dong belle drunk le.. ask mi drink for her.. nothing oso i drink.. haha.. lol.. head so pain.. slept dunno how long le.. yest reach home ard 2 plus slept at 3 til 8+.. after mj session slept frm 2.30 to 10+ ba.. pig rite.. lol.. sianz.. wad a day to be at home.. tats all for today..

...WoRlD...

2005-06-30T19:37:00.000+08:00

yAwnzzZ.. so tired.. juz finish my dinner.. so full.. haha.. last nite went down again wif ken.. haha.. i noe alot of ppl msn mi while i was away.. sorry guys.. haha.. anyway poy.. tis blog of mine is anyhow do de.. last time i post my add in qf taggie.. think u nv c clearly ba.. anyway wad i wrote earlier wouldn't create any problems for u 2 ba.. tat's all in the past.. and i dunno how to delete oso.. haha.. lol.. last nite 4 then slp.. but heng at camp slack whole day.. tml half day nia.. so happy.. hopefully wouldn't kanna any duty ba.. tonite not going down.. cos tired.. haha.. went down there then discover afew songs quite nice.. like kuai le chong bai and lian ai da ren.. from pan wei bo and luo zhi xiang.. lol.. jacky ni zui zhen gui.. lol.. wad a nice song.. nth to blog today leh.. maybe tml then continue ba.. lalalalalalalala

...past 2 days...

2005-06-28T20:20:00.000+08:00

juz bath hao.. was on the phone wif ken and chatted ard 1 hr plus lidat.. after last week trip to FINZ.. we seems to hab topics to tok abt.. haha.. anyway tis past 2 days, every nite i've been to FINZ.. haha.. find jadee to chat ba.. haha.. hey.. she's not the 1 i love okay.. juz frenz.. sat was wif ken and sun i was alone then last nite i went down wif ken.. haha.. sound so happening.. sunday i was like kinda so lonely, couldn't stand being alone at home on a sunday.. so went on to find her lo.. then there like dunno any1 so well.. but the ppl are friendly lo, they still rmb mi when they saw mi outside 7-11 which is juz beside finz..

jadee was wif mi.. acc mi talk talk.. haha.. anyway she oso drink too much le, so it's juz like she's cooling down.. after tat she went my hse.. (we did not do anything naughty) okay!!! i noe wad i'm doing.. we only hug hug lo.. i'm not going to hide anything here.. i'm a guy, it doesn't matter how u all look at mi.. tis is juz mi.. when i'm single i can do lots of thingie.. ard 6 plus then slp.. as usual i slept in the living room.. hais.. so ke lian de mi.. ard 10 plus lidat i went to my room and slp le.. can't stand being so hot.. but anyway she was cold like hell.. haha.. even wif the blanket on, she's stil shivering.. haha.. then i chg the temp to 22 degree ba.. then i slept le.. think she stil cold, tat's y she hug mi tight.. and i too.. hug her back too.. juz lidat lo.. anyway i was oso sick so intended to c doc in the morning.. 6 plus then slp how to expect mi to go c doc.. afternoon then c.. anyway i was almost charged for awol.. and i dun gif it a damn.. anyway my punishment is confinement ba.. heck care la.. 1 mth very fast passed de.. hehe..

last nite evening went down wif ken.. haha.. i reach there 1st so i went in and sit.. then jadee came and tok to mi lo.. we open 4 jugs beer last nite.. $80.. so ex.. -_-" haha.. wasn't drunk.. but jadee was drunk.. again.. hahahaha.. lol.. she got a fren cum sister name belle.. i always cal her ding dong bell.. she's lame lo, we play dai dee or wad huh, she wil marked mi de.. as if i owe her in the previous life.. haha.. ken and mi send them back home when they finished their work.. we go makan 1st then send them home.. when i reached home it was like 4 am liao lo.. 2 more hrs muz wake up to go back camp.. imagine 2 days only slept 2 hrs.. kinda torturing for mi.. haha.. but i dun care.. i'm happy can le.. u guys dun think ken is teaching bad mi okay.. wil control de lo.. if one life u nv try and discover new things.. wad for u live in tis world.. right? kinda getting used to tat i'm alone le.. thanks ken.. haha.. lol.. tonite of cos not going down la.. tired liao lo.. haha.. maybe fri or sat go down again.. interesting ppl there.. guess i shall stopped here le.. can come home de hua then update again.. my confinement.. haha.. lol.. miss ya.. :)

life starting to get back on tracks..

2005-06-27T17:02:00.000+08:00

on MC today.. hais.. stomach flu.. sucks manz.. so tired.. yawnzZ.. realy enjoy my day on sat.. celebrating ken birthday at 1 of the pub in clarke quay.. name FINZ.. haha.. went there 2 times ba.. keke.. anyway, tot got alot of ppl going de.. eric and yang fei last min say cannot come.. hais.. poy gif face but less than an hr, he's gone too.. meeting his loved ones.. i guess.. so juz left mi and ken there lo.. and some of his frenz.. wow.. the ppl there are so friendly and nice.. keke.. so drank beers and chivas.. oh my god.. around 12 plus.. the kick come already.. feel abit high le.. haha.. cos they mad de.. bo ta bo lan pa.. keep drinking.. wan hide oso cannot.. then after tat play pool like pro lidat.. eyes cannot concentrate le stil can pot quite a few balls cos the ppl there all play pool very pro de.. later on 1 ger went on to talk to us.. introducing herself.. she's a staff there who juz start work around 3 days.. maybe i was abit drunk le, so i oso ask her to drink.. beers and chivas.. oso same.. it's either half mug or 1 mug.. haha.. after tat we chatted awhile.. then i think i ask for her number.. haha.. i understand wad kind of ger she is.. rest assured i would heed ken's advice.. play can but nv fall in love wif her.. i wouldn't let myself fall into the hole and sank deeper.. it will only caused hurts even more.. right now, i juz wan freedom.. habing freedom is a wonderful feeling.. haha.. do wad u wan, drink how much u wan oso nobody nag.. dun say parents la.. haha.. hoping for a next trip to the FINZ.. keke.. take care dudes..

...XxXxXxXxXx...

2005-06-23T14:23:00.000+08:00

i'm home.. took leave again.. i guess it juz doesn't matter anymore.. i'm immune.. a life wif no goals i'm leading.. to tis god damn world.. later meeting an qi and ah siong.. haha.. wad a name.. so cute.. meeting them for coffee.. wad past is past.. i'm too tired for it.. juz hate heaven for treating mi tis way.. let mi led tis kinda life.. hais.. no matter how happy i may look during the day.. but when i return to my room.. couldn't control it.. it fell so naturaly.. i'm sick of it.. sick of tis world.. sick of myself.. SICK SICK SICK.. only when tis thing happen.. at least i saw afew ppl true colour.. tats show mi wad kind of ppl they are.. i wun mention it here.. neither would i tell other ppl.. i shall keep it to myself.. need to look for a job le.. hais.. y are there so many problems for mi to solve de.. fuck man.. god damn it.. damn tis world.. nth to blog le.. tired.. wo hao lei le........

...everyone is leavin me...

2005-06-22T11:05:00.000+08:00

so long nv blog le.. think got 3 weeks le ba.. anyway as usual, happen alot of thingie.. recently something happen tat hit mi hard on the head.. she's attached.. and tat guy is my good fren.. sounds drama? haha.. but tat's the way it is.. some1 ever told mi.. 'tats life.. many ppl hab gone through it, y can't u?' i noe it makes sense.. but i need time too.. last nite i think alot.. thinking of us last week.. wed morning while i went back camp early in the morning to do my detail.. she went home.. i gave her some $$ to eat in case she's hungry.. giving her some $$ means my pocket are burnt.. i'm not rich.. i juz hope she hab some $$ in case of emergency.. after which she sent mi some msgs.. i'm so happy tat day.. life is back on track as i thought.. as i no money for transport anymore.. i couln't find her on wed and thur.. anyway some1 go on my behalf.. i oso dunno.. but tat is the turning point of my life again.. on friday.. suddenly she say dun wanna gif mi false hope again.. again.. tat is the last time we contact.. cos she nv reply mi since.. i dunno wad happen til yesterday.. i reached home, on the com and went straight to her blog.. and saw tat.. i feel the world hab crushed down on mi.. my heart hab nv felt so hurt b4.. yes.. i'm angry.. but wad can i do.. he's my good fren.. i'm oso quite happy tat it's him rather then anybody else.. anyway we went for a talk last nite.. at je de coffee shop.. she was there too.. i'm so surprised.. only then i realised when the 1 u love no longer love u, whatever u did is no use.. no matter wad u buy, wad u did is no use.. after the talk i went straight home.. til now.. my tears juz couldn't stop flowing.. everywhere i go, everything i do seems to connect those things tat i used to do wif her.. xiao bai, xiao mao and garfield all by my bed.. i cried to slp and mo mi qi mel de wake up in tears.. my heart are stil aching.. from now on.. i hope seeing there i so long nv update le, u wouldn't come in again.. i sincerely wish both of u good.. dun worry.. wo meng hai shi peng you.. juz let mi be alone ba..

....................

2005-06-06T22:33:00.000+08:00

i hab decided to let u go.. u are avoiding me.. i can feel it.. and i can't blame u nor anybody else cos it's my fault at the 1st place.. those flowers shall be the last roses for u.. hope u like it.. may it be the best memory tat u both shared.. hope u wil find some1 more mature ba.. more suitable for u.. it took alot of courage.. i cried alot.. i juz couldn't control it.. hope i wish there were some1 by my side too.. my hearts are aching.. it juz doesn't seem like it is going to stop.. as each day passed.. i realise u are inside my mind for the whole day.. i couldn't stop thinking of u.. i dunno if i wil stil msg u.. u need peace, tat's y i'm controlling myself not to sms u.. i'm trying my very best.. rest assure i'll succeed.. juz went through my box which contain ur letter.. saw alot of memory.. i cried the moment i open the box.. there were those letters saying mi not to leave u.. but end up is the opposite.. but it's okay.. as long as u will be happy.. my heart juz couldn't stop aching.. lastly.. pls take special good care when i'm no longer taking care of u.. live happily..

i'm stupid!!!

2005-06-05T20:51:00.001+08:00

hi all.. i'm back le.. hehe.. anyway i was out of course.. not becos i cao keng okay.. is i realy got back pro.. haiz.. no 1 believe.. only sherlyn and some of my close fren believe nia.. haiz.. any recently oso happen alot of thingie.. realise is i start de.. at least i think it should be mi ba.. ignoring her.. causing her hurt.. attempted suicide.. cos i'm stressed.. realy going to crazy le.. not juz to scare her to make her xin luan cos i noe she wun de.. she stopped me.. maybe all the while we got chance to patch back de.. now like the chances are slim.. but rest assured.. i'll nv gif up de.. think nobody are gonna read my blog.. last time only sherlyn wil read it de.. now oso dunno whether she got read ma.. hehe.. but anyway.. tis few days.. i think alot of thingie.. abt how to be the perfect bf.. hehe.. i realise i can de.. there's something i'm so curious.. who is she meeting on tue? haiz.. hey.. it's only out of curiousity.. i'm not controlling her.. we are frenz now.. close frenz.. u noe.. haha.. saw her msg frm feng reminding her to take off on tue.. i oso dunno y.. haiz.. right now.. she needs peace.. i'll try my very best not to fan her de.. let her hab peace b4 i reappear in her life again.. the rings tat we used to wore.. juz to let u noe.. i'm not going to take it down.. these are not sweet nothings.. not for u to hear for fun de.. anyway today juz went sentosa.. now is like roasted pig le.. haha.. my mum apply some creams for mi le.. bringing a small bottle for sherlyn tml.. cos her skin juz recover ma now got sun burn again.. hehe.. tats all for today.. i'm tired.. cos last nite nv slp.. hehe.. wan an

5th months juz sucks to the max!!!!

2005-05-29T17:23:00.000+08:00

haiyo.. i'm back again.. haha.. later hab to book in le.. so boring.. y muz spore guys serve the army?? waste of time lo.. damn it.. alot of things happen tis month and tis week.. tis month sure sucks manz.. luckily june is reaching and i hope it's a good month for me.. during my stay in.. we broke up.. due to some problems.. she did not salvage the relationship.. neither did she xin luan.. my stay in was a damn wan.. loss of sleeps at nite.. if not i would be crying to slp every nite.. til the day i book out which i took a cab to find her at her hse.. i tot she would be sleeping.. so i was so cfm tat i went ahead w/o going home 1st.. when i reach her hse.. there's no 1 to pick up the call.. so i left the milk which i hab bought for her on her bed.. after tat then i noe she went out le cos it's xt birthday.. think she oso nv go home oso.. cos previous nite they went to play mj.. think so.. cos xt called mi if i wanted to play ma.. go home de hua is oso morning then go home bath.. haha.. so i went home lo.. evening then she asked if i wan to meet her.. meet lo.. the moment i saw her, i wanted to hug her.. but she walk 1st.. but i stil manage to hug her frm behind.. we went to eat $1.5 duck rice.. cheap huh.. haha.. the whole day i only eat breakfast which is at 5 plus in the morning lo.. wanted to hab lunch wif her de.. but since she not free then nvm lo.. i ai er.. i dunno if she got regret patching up wif mi ma.. she told mi the feelings will nv be the same again.. but y?? i dun understand.. isn't tis the same like any break up in the past? i hab nv tot of letting her go.. but she did not salvage.. til now, i wonder, wil she treat mi like the same again? the siao sherlyn i used to noe? laughing so loud, so violent.. like to lie on mi whenever she's tired? i missed those times.. i dunno if u wil c tis blog.. maybe u wun.. but i guess u are the only 1 tat wil waste time and c my blog.. then last nite after meeting her.. i went je to find poy lo.. then makan wif anqi oso b4 proceeding to poy hse to play mj.. haha.. i lost of cos.. bad month.. rmb? then went home around 3 ba.. hehe.. hab to wait til next week again le.. i'm so bored.. i'm thinking of leaving tis world.. someday i might juz go crazy.. ba0beI.. if u happen to c tis blog.. juz to let u noe.. i reallly love u alot de.. pls dun leave mi hao ma?? if u realy regret de hua.. juz let mi noe lo.. okay.. i would rather u be happy leading ur life..

nothing to d0 ar!!!!!

2005-05-23T12:13:00.000+08:00

so sianz ar.. wad a weekend tat i hab spent.. haha.. fri didn't go anywhere.. juz stay at home lo.. then slept til sat morning 8 plus.. wake up le watch tv and surt net.. daily routine.. haha.. can't think of anything to do.. then 1 plus lidat go meet my camp fren darren.. haha.. he oso on his way to meet his gf.. so at least b4 tat we can meet ma.. we went je to makan.. i eat duck rice.. wow.. the duck rice there very popular de.. hehe.. then we went arcade play awhile b4 we went to skate ring(fugi ice palace) haiz.. then he go town find his gf le lo.. haha.. as for mi.. standard, go jp ph find sherlyn lo.. we didn't go anywhere so went back to my hse lo.. rot then watch man u and arsenal match together.. man u rocks manz.. haha.. but man u lost.. haiz.. i lost $$ too.. haha.. after tat around 3 plus.. hui si reached my hse too.. started playing mahjong at 4.. haha.. finished round 10 in the morning.. so tired ar.. went mac eat lunch? breakfast? haha.. i oso dunno.. anyway they go shopping then i go hm slp lo.. haiz.. wanted to wake up early go town wif her de.. end up i call her she oso nv picked up the phone.. so i 7 plus in the evening juz wake up lo.. went to bb to find her eat dinner.. after tat go ph find poy.. tot got mj section again.. haha.. but no leh.. cancel at the last min.. so went home watch tv and play game lo.. 5 plus then slp.. 9 plus wake up again.. y huh??? my like like so boring.. like no life lidat.. maybe all thanks to NS ba.. SAF( Serve And Fuck Off) tml start my driving course again.. kinda not used to stay in life again.. wad to do.. damn it!! be more positive ba.. oso a good chance tat she can hab freedom.. a wish tat she hope to hab.. haha.. anyway i oso nv controlled her wad.. dunno is who control who.. haha.. guess my next blog will be next week le ba.. bye all.. take care!!!!

sianzzzz..!!!!

2005-05-21T09:31:00.000+08:00

juz wake up.. recently like so busy.. busy til no time to blog.. yesterday morning i got v-com(vehicle commander).. hab to report at 5.45am.. haha.. so got to stay in on thurs nite.. wa.. like so tired ar.. send those OCS ppl to lim chu kang for their live firing.. after tat then went back to our camp.. which i slept til lunch time.. wahahaha.. so su fu.. haiz.. but hor 1 pm got class 4 driving briefing.. i expected it to end early de, end up the person in charge talk so much, talk for 5 hrs ar.. sian til i can die lidat.. haha.. next week start my course le.. wun be able to come home everyday.. life wil be like recruit again.. haiz.. stay in at sembawang camp.. nvm.. juz ren nei for 5 weeks and it will be over.. so tis weekend wanna spend it meaningful.. dun wanna waste any time.. hehe.. muz cherish the time ma.. recently feeling so down.. oso dunno y.. haha.. so sianz ar!!!!! wad a sat.. dunno wad to do.. wad can i do.. hao la.. nothing to say le.. got chance then blog ba..

heLLo.. da jia hAo

2005-05-19T08:06:00.000+08:00

wow.. 1st time create a blog.. still new here.. like dunno wad to do leh.. hehe.. anyway.. juz to intro myself.. hi, i'm bryan.. curenntly in N.S.. i'm attached.. kinda lame huh.. haha.. lol.. surprised tat a time like this i'm at home? haha.. cos i'm sick.. down wif a stomach upset.. my camp MO say if it(gastric) hurts somemore muz go hospital immediately.. sound so serious sia.. wil scare mi de lo.. haha..lol.. haiz.. tis morning, almost quarrel wif a chief PTI.. as usual, got life run on every wed morning.. tis morning is like any other wed.. except tat it's raining.. so they decided to run on the track.. i ran for a few rounds b4 i started to walk.. he suddenly appear out of nowhere then say if we can gif him some face then jog.. then okay lo.. my fren and mi jog.. he demand us to increase our speed.. siao!! my fren then say fastest speed liao.. anyway we were jogging la.. he scold us in vuglar which i'm not going to stat down here.. indirectly referring to my mother.. HELLO!!! it's rude to scold other ppl parents.. nvm.. i tahan.. all the more i walk to let him c.. after the run.. he called mi and my fren out.. then tekan us.. after which he complained to my 1wo(warrant officer).. my mdm understand wad kind of ppl he is so she juz act scold in front of him.. b4 he was complaining, he said "i've been in tis line for 30 over yrs, u wan to f*** around wif mi? i dun care who the f*** are u". then follow by some vuglar words again.. when i go back to my company, i talk to my mdm.. i say i cannot tahan lo.. u say mi nvm.. i stil can take it.. y muz him say my mother? my mum de jui him? a staff sergeant doesn't gif u the right to f*** other ppl mother.. haiz.. 1st time blog already so many vuglar le.. sorry baobei.. no more for the next blog.. hehe>. (o_O)

bryan bloggie

when is it going to be MY day?

bad aura!!!

no words can describe my mo0d now....

stupid haze!!

am i useless?

wo hAo xiAng nI~~

~~s0medAy u will wAn mi baCk, but i wun??~~

drifting further and further....... ...... ......

~~life seems getting dull~~

~~loving someone is not easy~~

~~i still miss u~~

~~am i a fo0l~~

living in a world wif no life

~~i miss u so much~~

~~missing u~~

~~w0rld without xiaowei~~

wo ai de ren

hAppy birthdAy j0shuA~~~

birthday reaching!! lalalala~~

Ministry Of Sound

i'm so tired!!

super sIanz manz

sn0w ciTy is fUn~!~!~

pics tat i pr0mise to p0st

baCk baCk baCk

~~CNY reAching.. aNg p0w!!!~~

bAck to blogGing..

swAy swAy sWay

sUnday!!!!!

christmas c0ming..

hAppy bIrthdAy t0 my sIs..

hAppy bIrthdAy t0 u.. mY bIg sISteR

FInally frEe

BRYAN, YOU CAN DO IT..

weEkend agAin!!!! YipeE..

@@@MC finishing soon@@@

+++m0nday bluEs+++

.....i trUly misS u.....

hArd lifE...

[++<<<< bryAn>>>>++]

wAd a b0ring sAt!!!

change blog skins again..

0rcHard so maNy chAis!!!!!

heez... MC for 6 weeks..

haha.. changed my blog skins!!!

i went out today!!!!

sianz

craps craps craps

bone fracture

bone fracture

hais~~~

i wanna st0p drInking!!!

hais~~~

pay day coming soon.. yipee..

sianz

juz chiong finish

sunday again..

...hightlights...

wad a day

sianz

shag ar...

yaWnz

thurs le.. yipee

s0 sHag

h0me sweet h0me

sunday again.. damn u

recover recover recover

...I'm SoRrY...

sIcK sIcK sIcK

boring

...WoRlD...

...past 2 days...

life starting to get back on tracks..

...XxXxXxXxXx...

...everyone is leavin me...

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i'm stupid!!!

5th months juz sucks to the max!!!!

nothing to d0 ar!!!!!

s0medAy u will wAn mi baCk, but i wun??

life seems getting dull

loving someone is not easy

i still miss u

am i a fo0l

i miss u so much

missing u

w0rld without xiaowei

CNY reAching.. aNg p0w!!!